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addictedfukup

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Feb 15, 2026
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Hey so first things first if you dont want to get help then this wont help :( sorry :( and i know because i didnt want to do better for over a year


so pretty much i tried to log in the other day, i couldnt for a few days, i ended up calling a suicide hotline one night and they fucking hung up on. The next night i was really bad and i had the gun and was walking around my spots, i called a local one that DOES NOT have licensed people who promised not to call the police on me. And they actually helped, They helped me get free counseling and help from a place close by me. Im gonna be talking with counselors until they can assign me a real therapists and im gonna get diagnosed and everything ;) and its alll freeee.

Just knowing that i have this feels alot better and it gives me hope, i decided to give life another year and if im not making progress ill kill myself but im really hopeful and think i can :) i stopped drinking and using for only a few days but im taking care of myself, working out and im back to reading and writing ;)

Im still gonna post my thoughts and poems on here because i feel like it lol <3
 
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somethingisntreal

somethingisntreal

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Aug 30, 2025
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I'm glad for you, but I'm sure most of us here have been in and out of psychiatry for years and it didn't help. I don't mean to say that it won't work out for you but therapy is really a hit or miss. Humans know so little about how our tiny stupid brains work it's laughable.
 
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l1ablemistakes

Wasted potential
Feb 16, 2026
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Hey so first things first if you dont want to get help then this wont help :( sorry :( and i know because i didnt want to do better for over a year


so pretty much i tried to log in the other day, i couldnt for a few days, i ended up calling a suicide hotline one night and they fucking hung up on. The next night i was really bad and i had the gun and was walking around my spots, i called a local one that DOES NOT have licensed people who promised not to call the police on me. And they actually helped, They helped me get free counseling and help from a place close by me. Im gonna be talking with counselors until they can assign me a real therapists and im gonna get diagnosed and everything ;) and its alll freeee.

Just knowing that i have this feels alot better and it gives me hope, i decided to give life another year and if im not making progress ill kill myself but im really hopeful and think i can :) i stopped drinking and using for only a few days but im taking care of myself, working out and im back to reading and writing ;)

Im still gonna post my thoughts and poems on here because i feel like it lol <3
I'm glad you're getting help and I wish you all the best in your recovery journey <3 it's always worth trying even if people on here say it's pointless.
 
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addictedfukup

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Feb 15, 2026
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I'm glad you're getting help and I wish you all the best in your recovery journey <3 it's always worth trying even if people on here say it's pointless.
thank you so much for the kind words ;) and yes i agree i am happy i am giving myself another shot, i feel better just knowing that im trying
I'm glad for you, but I'm sure most of us here have been in and out of psychiatry for years and it didn't help. I don't mean to say that it won't work out for you but therapy is really a hit or miss. Humans know so little about how our tiny stupid brains work it's laughable.
i meet and see more people who say its worked for them. real fucked up people who have recovered so i have hope. this post if for people who avoid even trying it out of fear or money reasons or whatever, i just want people to know its an option lol
 
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meddle

Student
Jan 11, 2024
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im so happy for you! you can at least try! and if it dont gets better you can always ctb later. wish you luck!
 
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NormallyNeurotic

NormallyNeurotic

Everything is going to be okay â‹… he/him
Nov 21, 2024
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Peer-run non-carceral hotlines are the best! Glad you're still kicking.
 
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ScaredCutter

ScaredCutter

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Oct 16, 2025
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wow, very proud of u!! also, amazing that its free as well! hope it all goes well for u in the end.
 
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