This may be goodbye

[8evergo]

you are too far away from me otherwise i would join you

 

[wljourney]

Hey @takemenowpls
I just wanted to check in and just saw your last post. I am glad you took another night to cuddle with your dogs.
Mine certainly keeps me going, even if I know I am ready to go. One more night. One more scratch.

In my experience the day after being in so much pain and being so very tempted to leave, all my energy is just gone. Completely drained.
It may be a very rough day for you too. Just sitting there. Staring at the rope. Not being able to do anything other than sit and stare or go back to bed. I believe that's normal and it's o.k. to just curl up and be still.

Sending love and peace.
We'll be here for you.

 

[Everlong]

I am hesitant to post this but I feel I should just to be on the safe side. This is not clickbait. Today afforded me even more terrible things when I thought maybe it would slow down. Nope, I awoke to news that I still can not believe. A few of you may know I was gathering everything to ctb via SN. One kind person even helped me locate the right stuff. But I fear I can not wait till it and the other required parts arrive.

Previously I considered partial hanging. So I went on the garage for the rope and tied a slip knot. I live alone in a big house with an upstairs. I tired the rope onto one of the banisters and lowered it down. First try it was perfect height…. I put my head in the rope and put it around the Adam's apple. As instructed I made sure it was hitting the carotid arteries. I began to push down and hold for just a second. I was out a couple seconds later. It works, And the knots didn't slip.

I finished 3 goodbye notes on my phone and printed them out. Now I'm just sitting dwelling on it. Waiting for that impulse to hit. If it does I won't be back. If I go I wanted to thank you all for being here when I needed help. Thank you all so very much. I wish you all peace in whatever direction you travel.

Sincerely

How are you today, @takemenowpls?

 

[takemenowpls]

I'm still here. Spent the day preparing documents, looking through old pictures when life was good. Made me smile and I hate it. Happiness is just a lie. It's the mind playing tricks on you till you end up here, where I am today. The rope still hangs waiting for me. I just have to find the courage now.

Love to you all

 

[wljourney]

I'm still here. Spent the day preparing documents, looking through old pictures when life was good. Made me smile and I hate it. Happiness is just a lie. It's the mind playing tricks on you till you end up here, where I am today. The rope still hangs waiting for me. I just have to find the courage now.

Love to you all

Yes, my sister called it "Swedish Death Cleaning". Apparently its an actual thing. Of course more for seniors who are clearing out their homes before their time, so that next of kin aren't burdened with it.

I just did some of that this week. One garbage bag at a time. Ripping up papers. It's quite helpful to work through SI and to let go of the things.

Sending you strength.

 

[Everlong]

I'm still here. Spent the day preparing documents, looking through old pictures when life was good. Made me smile and I hate it. Happiness is just a lie. It's the mind playing tricks on you till you end up here, where I am today. The rope still hangs waiting for me. I just have to find the courage now.

Love to you all

I'm separated from my family against my wishes. I put on a face around them feeling guilty because they have no idea the thoughts that this smile is hiding. I, too, am putting my shit in order. There will be no warning. Just a lively last few months. "He seemed so happy."
Let it be as they say.
Sending you See you in the Evermore…

 

[blackheart]

I am hesitant to post this but I feel I should just to be on the safe side. This is not clickbait. Today afforded me even more terrible things when I thought maybe it would slow down. Nope, I awoke to news that I still can not believe. A few of you may know I was gathering everything to ctb via SN. One kind person even helped me locate the right stuff. But I fear I can not wait till it and the other required parts arrive.

Previously I considered partial hanging. So I went on the garage for the rope and tied a slip knot. I live alone in a big house with an upstairs. I tired the rope onto one of the banisters and lowered it down. First try it was perfect height…. I put my head in the rope and put it around the Adam's apple. As instructed I made sure it was hitting the carotid arteries. I began to push down and hold for just a second. I was out a couple seconds later. It works, And the knots didn't slip.

I finished 3 goodbye notes on my phone and printed them out. Now I'm just sitting dwelling on it. Waiting for that impulse to hit. If it does I won't be back. If I go I wanted to thank you all for being here when I needed help. Thank you all so very much. I wish you all peace in whatever direction you travel.

Sincerely

I am sorry to read this but I am confident you will find the relief you are looking for. There is no point in living a life if we have to suffer so it would be better go. Find your peace, my heart is with you <3

 

[Nirrend]

I'm still here. Spent the day preparing documents, looking through old pictures when life was good. Made me smile and I hate it. Happiness is just a lie. It's the mind playing tricks on you till you end up here, where I am today. The rope still hangs waiting for me. I just have to find the courage now.

Love to you all

Don't blame yourself <3

You're already courageous, because you are living difficult things right now, you have courage

We love you, do not forget <3

I hope that you'll find the serenity you deserve @takemenowpls

I'm so sorry for you <3

 

[8evergo]

I'm still here. Spent the day preparing documents, looking through old pictures when life was good. Made me smile and I hate it. Happiness is just a lie. It's the mind playing tricks on you till you end up here, where I am today. The rope still hangs waiting for me. I just have to find the courage now.

Love to you all

Yes, I know that it's not that easy, you always find something that you keep putting off, I feel the same way, I need someone who is determined and we can pull it through together I understand you let it come if not wait I've been looking for someone to help me for a long time and pull it through together

 

[Nirrend]

I guess that @takemenowpls is dead...

That's sad.., but afterall, nobody can really struggle against existence

If yes, I hope you've reached the peace you deserved <3

Love my friend <3

 

[Thefuture]

Hey, if you're still here and wanna talk send me a message. I know what it feels like.