sadlyexisting
Missing the good times
- Jun 26, 2023
- 102
I really don't know what to do anymore. I'm so lonely, I literally have no one but my parents. I have no friends. I only have "friends" at university and no contact with them otherwise. I can't talk to anyone. Everyone that I thought cared about me once turned out to be someone who just used me for their own gain.
I'm sitting in my room 24/7 wasting my life away. I'm smoking, drinking a lot of caffeine, and destroying my body with whatever I can get my hands on at this point. But nothing seems to help me get rid of these horrible feelings and loneliness.
I think it's partly my fault that I'm so lonely, too. I push everyone away from me, even when I don't want to and I feel like I don't deserve any friends.
It just hurts so much to know you have nothing to look forward to, no one you can talk to, no one that understands you. I have no one to care about me. I'm just a person that's waiting to die, with no one being there for me, slowly going insane because of my own emotions.
I hate myself and my life.
I'm sitting in my room 24/7 wasting my life away. I'm smoking, drinking a lot of caffeine, and destroying my body with whatever I can get my hands on at this point. But nothing seems to help me get rid of these horrible feelings and loneliness.
I think it's partly my fault that I'm so lonely, too. I push everyone away from me, even when I don't want to and I feel like I don't deserve any friends.
It just hurts so much to know you have nothing to look forward to, no one you can talk to, no one that understands you. I have no one to care about me. I'm just a person that's waiting to die, with no one being there for me, slowly going insane because of my own emotions.
I hate myself and my life.