this is weird

[mattoman]

I want to ctb, but idk why. I want to ctb but idk how. I want to ctb but idk where.

Well I kind of know reasons for these. I want to ctb because I'm no good for anyone, I have addictions ruining my life and I don't know what to do with them. But I don't know that where. Dumb post, sorry for that, but I really want to ctb I'm tired of everything, but I guess this is my last cry for help, hopefully it won't help.

Idk what to do, I'm addicted to alcohol, I drink every day, I am addicted to gambling, I gamble every day because I want money and that to help me end my misery.

I'm just pissed, sorry if this is post that is useless or anything. Fuck

 

[attheend13]

I want to ctb, but idk why. I want to ctb but idk how. I want to ctb but idk where.

Well I kind of know reasons for these. I want to ctb because I'm no good for anyone, I have addictions ruining my life and I don't know what to do with them. But I don't know that where. Dumb post, sorry for that, but I really want to ctb I'm tired of everything, but I guess this is my last cry for help, hopefully it won't help.

Idk what to do, I'm addicted to alcohol, I drink every day, I am addicted to gambling, I gamble every day because I want money and that to help me end my misery.

I'm just pissed, sorry if this is post that is useless or anything. Fuck

It's not useless. Not here. In the world yeah all our words are useless and meaningless. It's honest and I relate to so much I hear here because it's honest. I know that doesn't help at all but today I'm just noticing how much truth is on this site. If it means anything at all o feel the same. I want to CTB but I don't know how it won't devestate my daughters. They're grown but very young.

 

[Anonymousa]

Its totally understandable if you are exhausted with being stuck in the cycle you are in. Its hard to get out of addictions even if they negatively effect you more than positively as you are rely on the temporally highs that they give you. Its hard to live if you want to provide beneficial things to others but you don't think you do and think you are a burden. Its okay if you want to ctb, no matter the reason. I feel like I am stuck in my feelings of emptiness and want to ctb to escape it. There are probably ways to get out of being suicidal for us but its very difficult.