this is weird: i'm actually starting to appreciate my bad days, because they make me know for sure i will catch the bus soon

[SufferingInDenmark]

like, sometimes you have less bad days... where some of the suicidal thoughts might almost disappear.
once in a while.
i have days like that, maybe once every 3 months or something.
but now i'm actually starting to appreciate my VERY bad days, because they make me know for sure that soon it will all be over.
because i know i can't keep living like this.

it's a very weird mix of emotions... like, it's bad, but it's good.
it's like a rollercoaster, i can't even fully explain it, man...

 

[white_car]

I hear you... I hate existence, but at least I'm not under any illusions about its nature... Which is good in a sense.