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MiMif

MiMif

I do not live for others to understand me...
Sep 13, 2023
687
Genuinely omfg this is so annoying....why is it so damn hard to die but then others who don't want to die die everyday so easily....wtf. I'm just so frustrated cause I really want to die this Saturday but legit don't think any of my methods will work
 
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The_Sadness_of_Life

I Will Die Soon
Sep 8, 2025
52
I feel you, this world 🌎 works in strange way.
People who wanted to live or deserve to live dies but then people who want to die lives or living longer.
So many questions to ask about this so called life and existence.
 
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sorrowfullyliving

Always worried
Sep 2, 2025
57
I can definitely relate, I just did my fourth attempt today. I just wish for relief from the unimaginable suffering in this world, the unfair hand that we've been given with, and the suffocating feeling of wanting to die but always failing at it
 
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The_Sadness_of_Life

I Will Die Soon
Sep 8, 2025
52
I can definitely relate, I just did my fourth attempt today. I just wish for relief from the unimaginable suffering in this world, the unfair hand that we've been given with, and the suffocating feeling of wanting to die but always failing at it
4th attempt May I know what method your trying to use to CTB?
 
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sorrowfullyliving

Always worried
Sep 2, 2025
57
4th attempt May I know what method your trying to use to CTB?
The first one I did is drowning, my survival instinct kick in last minute and I swam back up, btw I did this before I found SaSu. The second, third, and fourth attempt all used ligature strangulation. The second attempt failed because my mom knocked my bedroom door, so I have to undo the knots. The third one failed because I didn't used enough pressure, and my ligature came loose half way. The fourth one failed because someone decided to "save me", tbh it was kinda my fault since I did it in my university public restroom, I was feeling really stressed out because I failed an exam so I figured I'll end it all right there. Yeah thats all of my attempts so far, I'm thinking about switching method since ligature strangulation doesn't seems to work out that well for me
 
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MiMif

I do not live for others to understand me...
Sep 13, 2023
687
The first one I did is drowning, my survival instinct kick in last minute and I swam back up, btw I did this before I found SaSu. The second, third, and fourth attempt all used ligature strangulation. The second attempt failed because my mom knocked my bedroom door, so I have to undo the knots. The third one failed because I didn't used enough pressure, and my ligature came loose half way. The fourth one failed because someone decided to "save me", tbh it was kinda my fault since I did it in my university public restroom, I was feeling really stressed out because I failed an exam so I figured I'll end it all right there. Yeah thats all of my attempts so far, I'm thinking about switching method since ligature strangulation doesn't seems to work out that well for me
I'm sorry ur forced to go through all this. I hope you manage to find peace soon
 
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