Discussion This is my list of things to do before

[actual_fox]

Things I have to do before I ctb-
Physical things:

1. Get my house clean (before ctb
2. Study and perform daily tasks (so to not rush with ctb date and be able to plan things out)
3. Plan a bank transfer of all of my cash to my family so bank account is clean
4. Schedule emails to University excusing my absence
5. Write a letter that I will have with me
6. Clean my fridge
7. Throw all of the sex toys out (lol)
8. find suitable place to ctb and date for It (when I feel I have distanced myself enough)

Psychological things:

1. Limit contact with family and friends (so they can understand they can live well without me)
2. Practice ctb procedure in my head
3. Get over the fact that I will die and Idk what comes after It
4. Don't get delusional about some miracle that could make me happy for life
5. Don't begin new relationships (yeah like that would happen anyway lol)
6. Don't become overly happy or sad
7. Stop comparing my reason to ctb with other's
8. Don't get hooked on any addictions (porn, games, alcohol)

I want to ctb but It is a lot to handle and think about, maybe starting to prepare will desensitize me and prepare me. I don't want to feel stuck here. I need to keep moving.

 

[makethepainstop]

Things I have to do before I ctb-
Physical things:

1. Get my house clean (before ctb
2. Study and perform daily tasks (so to not rush with ctb date and be able to plan things out)
3. Plan a bank transfer of all of my cash to my family so bank account is clean
4. Schedule emails to University excusing my absence
5. Write a letter that I will have with me
6. Clean my fridge
7. Throw all of the sex toys out (lol)
8. find suitable place to ctb and date for It (when I feel I have distanced myself enough)

Psychological things:

1. Limit contact with family and friends (so they can understand they can live well without me)
2. Practice ctb procedure in my head
3. Get over the fact that I will die and Idk what comes after It
4. Don't get delusional about some miracle that could make me happy for life
5. Don't begin new relationships (yeah like that would happen anyway lol)
6. Don't become overly happy or sad
7. Stop comparing my reason to ctb with other's
8. Don't get hooked on any addictions (porn, games, alcohol)

I want to ctb but It is a lot to handle and think about, maybe starting to prepare will desensitize me and prepare me. I don't want to feel stuck here. I need to keep moving.

Your logic and planning are flawless, and most excellently thought out. I applaud your thoroughness and sequence of operation. May things be as you wish. You do have an excellent mind.

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that planning and preparing can often make the process of ctb easier for people. It does sound like you are well planned, I wish you freedom from all suffering for when the time is right for you to leave.

 

[almaranthine]

I have a similar list in mind in my head. I won't have any money left to transfer to family but that's a good idea to do that as long as they don't get some kind of notification of it beforehand. Also, just a thought here, depending on where you live, a money transfer over a certain amount is subject to taxes so make sure you break it up. I plan to make sure all my clothes are clean, and have donation piles set up. I also want to make sure all my art supplies are donated to a school or program where they will be well-utilized. I will also trash any writings or journals from my past. No point in my family reading them as they will only be confusing and depressing. Any extra dry food I will donate to the food pantry down the street. Lastly, I will have to take my cat to a shelter. This one will be the hardest for me.

 

[artificial_ineptness]

Some ideas:
What about tech stuff? Any subscriptions to end? Accounts you want other to access or prevent them from that? Data to delete or encrypt?
Are there any documents or legal agreements you have that you should maybe gather together?

Getting stuck does suck ass, I personally have been procrastinating for way too long...

 

[almaranthine]

Some ideas:
What about tech stuff? Any subscriptions to end? Accounts you want other to access or prevent them from that? Data to delete or encrypt?
Are there any documents or legal agreements you have that you should maybe gather together?

Getting stuck does suck ass, I personally have been procrastinating for way too long...

^definitely don't want to forget to delete my cursed social media remnants, thanks for the reminder

 

[actual_fox]

I have a similar list in mind in my head. I won't have any money left to transfer to family but that's a good idea to do that as long as they don't get some kind of notification of it beforehand. Also, just a thought here, depending on where you live, a money transfer over a certain amount is subject to taxes so make sure you break it up. I plan to make sure all my clothes are clean, and have donation piles set up. I also want to make sure all my art supplies are donated to a school or program where they will be well-utilized. I will also trash any writings or journals from my past. No point in my family reading them as they will only be confusing and depressing. Any extra dry food I will donate to the food pantry down the street. Lastly, I will have to take my cat to a shelter. This one will be the hardest for me.

wow, these are some really good ideas. I have a bit of supplies I could donate. Also art supplies. I don't have that much money so taxes won't be a problem. And yeah I would have to wash and iron all of my clothes.

Damn, that must be hard. I personally love animals.

Some ideas:
What about tech stuff? Any subscriptions to end? Accounts you want other to access or prevent them from that? Data to delete or encrypt?
Are there any documents or legal agreements you have that you should maybe gather together?

Getting stuck does suck ass, I personally have been procrastinating for way too long...

Yeah I would have to delete all browsing history, maybe delete everything from my hard drive just to be sure. Lock my phone from being accessed too. Thank you!

Don't worry. Death will come to all of us anyway

 

[almaranthine]

wow, these are some really good ideas. I have a bit of supplies I could donate. Also art supplies. I don't have that much money so taxes won't be a problem. And yeah I would have to wash and iron all of my clothes.

Damn, that must be hard. I personally love animals.

Yeah, it's going to break my heart. Especially because I worry no one will adopt the little guy. He's feisty and very suspicious of strangers. I worry about surviving my attempt somehow and waking up to him being gone. That would be devastating. However, I will end up losing my apartment soon anyways, so it's inevitable that I will have to let him go

 

[actual_fox]

Yeah, it's going to break my heart. Especially because I worry no one will adopt the little guy. He's feisty and very suspicious of strangers. I worry about surviving my attempt somehow and waking up to him being gone. That would be devastating. However, I will end up losing my apartment soon anyways, so it's inevitable that I will have to let him go

Somebody will take him, I am sure of It. Some people like a bit of challenge

 

[Felix007]

Damn you actually wanna transfer all your money to your family? I was thinking of spending most of it before i go…

 

[actual_fox]

Damn you actually wanna transfer all your money to your family? I was thinking of spending most of it before i go…

Because of costs of funeral and so they don't have to deal with banks

 

[Felix007]

Because of costs of funeral and so they don't have to deal with banks

Ok that makes sense, i havent even thought that far, then again i don have much money as a student..

 

[actual_fox]

Ok that makes sense, i havent even thought that far, then again i don have much money as a student..

me neither, but every dollar helps