somelex
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- May 5, 2026
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Hello everyone, I'm new to this site ^^
I'm European and have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, for which I've been hospitalized four times in recent years.
Lately, I've been fantasizing more and more about medication. I know it's not recommended, but with the right medication, it can work.
My last attempt, which led to my hospitalization, was an oxazepam overdose totaling 1.4 g, combined with alcohol and phenobarbital.
Of course, I didn't die, and it made me completely delirious.
My life wasn't even in danger; I could still breathe normally.
I think I've learned from my mistake, and here's a combination that, in my opinion, could be fatal:
- 3 types of benzodiazepines (oxazepam, alprazolam, bromazepam… of course, midazolam would be ideal, but it's impossible to get in my country)
- a non-cardioselective beta-blocker: my choice > propranolol
- phenobarbital
- an opioid: I'm thinking of oxycodone or buprenorphine, or a black-market opioid
- I'll try to get an anesthetic like sodium thiopental or propofol
And of course, antiemetic treatment
with a dopamine antagonist: metoclopramide, as well as a 5HT3 serotonin antagonist like ondansetron
I already have benzodiazepines, beta-blockers, and antiemetics on hand
Opioids and anesthetics will be much harder to find
So,
what do you think of this combination?
I have connections in the medical field, so I might be able to get this medication even though it's hard to find.
Thanks to everyone for your replies ^^
I'm European and have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, for which I've been hospitalized four times in recent years.
Lately, I've been fantasizing more and more about medication. I know it's not recommended, but with the right medication, it can work.
My last attempt, which led to my hospitalization, was an oxazepam overdose totaling 1.4 g, combined with alcohol and phenobarbital.
Of course, I didn't die, and it made me completely delirious.
My life wasn't even in danger; I could still breathe normally.
I think I've learned from my mistake, and here's a combination that, in my opinion, could be fatal:
- 3 types of benzodiazepines (oxazepam, alprazolam, bromazepam… of course, midazolam would be ideal, but it's impossible to get in my country)
- a non-cardioselective beta-blocker: my choice > propranolol
- phenobarbital
- an opioid: I'm thinking of oxycodone or buprenorphine, or a black-market opioid
- I'll try to get an anesthetic like sodium thiopental or propofol
And of course, antiemetic treatment
with a dopamine antagonist: metoclopramide, as well as a 5HT3 serotonin antagonist like ondansetron
I already have benzodiazepines, beta-blockers, and antiemetics on hand
Opioids and anesthetics will be much harder to find
So,
what do you think of this combination?
I have connections in the medical field, so I might be able to get this medication even though it's hard to find.
Thanks to everyone for your replies ^^
