This is a eminence amount of stress, CTB imminent

[crazyotterkelly]

Work has started endless documentation wars against me, I'm getting sick of being trans, I have had to move for my safety, then my cars transmission blew up mid move. Had to fix it

Been spam applying for work and interviews but I'm so tired. This whole situation has worn me down both physically and mentally. I dont even have the energy to explain it anymore

I can't go back to those hospitals because I don't want to be taken off my hrt if I survive so I need to make sure I do this right. I even called dad today and he just yelled at me. I have no voice and tried to push through for work but couldn't but my manager wanted to make me feel bad for calling off even with notice. America, 22

I give up. I'm thinking of short suspension on a bridge

 

[Kokonoe]

feel this. i'm also sick of being trans. it's just too hard. personally i'm just giving up and detransitioning. i was still going to ctb even with all the added stress and misery of transitioning so why even bother with it anymore.
planning on hanging, too. it's just hard.

 

[crazyotterkelly]

feel this. i'm also sick of being trans. it's just too hard. personally i'm just giving up and detransitioning. i was still going to ctb even with all the added stress and misery of transitioning so why even bother with it anymore.
planning on hanging, too. it's just hard.

I wish I could detransition. It would be harder on me then transition at this stage

 

[Kokonoe]

I wish I could detransition. It would be harder on me then transition at this stage

it would probably be hard on me at this stage, too. i've been socially transitioned for 7 years and on hrt for over 4 years. but like i can't get my meds anymore so i don't have much of a choice. and i do still think that at least for me it still is easier to detransition than the alternative. i'll just repress until i ctb.