Method This could be it (Goodbye thread.)

[arcadia]

Taking the antiemetics in 20 minutes, it's buccastem so they take an hour or so to dissolve

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

So sorry to see you leave. Sorry for being selfish. I hope you find the peace you weren't able to find here.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Is it ok to ask how you are doing? Not to pry. Just wondering if you are ok.

 

[Unwr!tten]

Let us know how you're doing, hun. <3

 

[arcadia]

Is it ok to ask how you are doing? Not to pry. Just wondering if you are ok.

I'm really terrified. I know it's for sure the right thing to do in my situation it's just, nerves

 

[Unwr!tten]

I hope you find the peace and joy you seek, hun. Let us know when it's your last message, okay? May I pray for you, too? If not, I won't.
I hope you find the peace and joy you seek, hun. Let us know when it's your last message, okay? May I pray for you, too? If not, I won't.

 

[arcadia]

I hope you find the peace and joy you seek, hun. Let us know when it's your last message, okay? May I pray for you, too? If not, I won't.
I hope you find the peace and joy you seek, hun. Let us know when it's your last message, okay? May I pray for you, too? If not, I won't.

That's completely fine, and yes, I will let you know

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

If I'm not here when you leave. I just want you to know that you will be missed. Really sorry life brought you here.

 

[arcadia]

If I'm not here when you leave. I just want you to know that you will be missed. Really sorry life brought you here.

I'll be holding off and trying a bit later. I'm just a bit too scared at the moment. I feel pathetic but I know any attempt no matter how painless would feel like torture at the moment

 

[rotrage]

I'll be holding off and trying a bit later. I'm just a bit too scared at the moment. I feel pathetic but I know any attempt no matter how painless would feel like torture at the moment

No matter when you decide to do it, you're not pathetic. You should feel free to do it anytime, it's awful that life has treated you this way. I wish you luck, keeping you in my thoughts.

 

[Eschaton]

I'll be holding off and trying a bit later. I'm just a bit too scared at the moment. I feel pathetic but I know any attempt no matter how painless would feel like torture at the moment

You are not pathetic. Everyone's bus ride is different. Know that regardless of your choice, you are surrounded by love and peace

 

[Valky]

I am really sad to hear that life has brought you to this point. :/

I wish you all the best and safe travels <33
Also, no matter what you decide to do, you are not pathetic!

 

[dimstar]

I really believe it should feel right if your ready. Theres nothing wrong with postponing. The time will speak to you, if that's tonight or in the future. It's your choice. We'll support you what ever so both safe journey and do what you truly feel. Trust your self. Annoyingly aging deep breaths. Love your way incoming ❤❤❤❤

 

[HerculePoirot]

I believe it's clear you are not ready, so don't do it, at least not now.
Nothing could be worse than a suicide under pressure or by fear of ridiculousness.
All the best.

 

[Letgo]

Hi, just wondering how are you?

 

[ThisIsGoodbye]

Has anyone heard from them? I hope they are doing okay, or have gone peacefully at least

 

[Raven2]

If it's not your time to go dont feel ashamed we will be here for you regardless.
it's your choice, I wish you peace if you need to go

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[Valky]

Oof sorry for saying the same thing twice, I was half asleep this morning.

Any updates? Are you still with us?

 

[Kookidook]

Benzos could really help if you're feeling anxious or stressed out about it. Meditation is also good! Really think honestly about yourself and the situation to get yourself where you need to be. Honesty is important, and be thorough when thinking.

All love and hugs to you. Wish you the best.

 

[arcadia]

I'll be holding off and trying a bit later. I'm just a bit too scared at the moment. I feel pathetic but I know any attempt no matter how painless would feel like torture at the moment

Drinking it in two hours

 

[speck]

wishing you a peaceful and easy passage. thank you for spending time with us and being transparent about being nervous.

 

[arcadia]

Wrote my final note. I'm waiting for my ae to dissolve, buccastem (Prochlorperazine) is a buccal tablet so I have a bit. Would you all mind if I said some words?
Ah screw it.. These are my final hours I'll ramble. One of the earliest memories was of the first video game I ever played, Final Fantasy 7. It's pretty well known, but it was very impactful on 5 year old me. Spoilers.. But at the end of the first disc, this character, Aerith is killed. It was disorientating, I think this is one of the first examples of death in a story I was presented with. It was followed by a rush of emotion, the protagonist cloud yells out "Aerith is gone. Aerith will no longer talk, no longer laugh, cry, or get angry. What about us? What are we supposed to do? What about my pain? My fingers are tingling. My mouth is dry. My eyes are burning!"
To which the antagonist replies "Are you telling me you have feelings?"
He retorts "Of course I do! Who do you think I am!"
This scene really impacted me, and how I viewed death. How life isn't so much defined by accomplishments or stature, but through just being there in the moment. Cloud values her simply existing, laughing, crying, her emotions no matter if they're negative or positive are a sign of her living.
Cut forward to 2015, and a remake of this game which so heavily impacted me is announced and I am starry eyed. Just amazed. I won't really get to play the whole thing, just the first part which released in 2020, but I've accepted that.
I haven't been able to feel these emotions in a way a regular person has in a long time, I've been broken. Broken by everything, everyday is the same despondent laying in bed and staring at the ceiling. Everyday, repeating itself, for years and years and years. Everyone around you sees you withering away, they try to lift your spirits but to no avail, I try medication and it works to no avail, I try everything and it just feels like my life has been upended and stolen from me. All of the years have blended together. I'm no longer alive. I don't laugh, I don't get angry, I cry once a blue moon. I've valued friendship so much, having someone there for you, but I'm incapable of fostering a relationship at this point. I'm incapable of being a functioning person. It's hell. Everyone around you thinks you'll beat it and turn out okay, because it's all invisible. The symptoms show up but the pain, the numbness and the inability to live, it's all invisible. I stopped fearing death a long time ago, dying does freak me out but what awaits me are a few minutes of bravery that'll save me from years of unbearable pain. Sometimes I get a slither of hope, that I'll be ok. But I return to this. I need to end it, because I do not feel human anymore. I've lost my soul.

This is another favorite of mine, Final Fantasy 9.

 

[10000DaysTooMany]

Best of luck. I'm so sorry life has been so hard for you. whatever you decide I hope you find peace. Thank you for your "rambling" friend. ❤

 

[Foxes]

Wrote my final note. I'm waiting for my ae to dissolve, buccastem (Prochlorperazine) is a buccal tablet so I have a bit. Would you all mind if I said some words?
Ah screw it.. These are my final hours I'll ramble. One of the earliest memories was of the first video game I ever played, Final Fantasy 7. It's pretty well known, but it was very impactful on 5 year old me. Spoilers.. But at the end of the first disc, this character, Aerith is killed. It was disorientating, I think this is one of the first examples of death in a story I was presented with. It was followed by a rush of emotion, the protagonist cloud yells out "Aerith is gone. Aerith will no longer talk, no longer laugh, cry, or get angry. What about us? What are we supposed to do? What about my pain? My fingers are tingling. My mouth is dry. My eyes are burning!"
To which the antagonist replies "Are you telling me you have feelings?"
He retorts "Of course I do! Who do you think I am!"
This scene really impacted me, and how I viewed death. How life isn't so much defined by accomplishments or stature, but through just being there in the moment. Cloud values her simply existing, laughing, crying, her emotions no matter if they're negative or positive are a sign of her living.
Cut forward to 2015, and a remake of this game which so heavily impacted me is announced and I am starry eyed. Just amazed. I won't really get to play the whole thing, just the first part which released in 2020, but I've accepted that.
I haven't been able to feel these emotions in a way a regular person has in a long time, I've been broken. Broken by everything, everyday is the same despondent laying in bed and staring at the ceiling. Everyday, repeating itself, for years and years and years. Everyone around you sees you withering away, they try to lift your spirits but to no avail, I try medication and it works to no avail, I try everything and it just feels like my life has been upended and stolen from me. All of the years have blended together. I'm no longer alive. I don't laugh, I don't get angry, I cry once a blue moon. I've valued friendship so much, having someone there for you, but I'm incapable of fostering a relationship at this point. I'm incapable of being a functioning person. It's hell. Everyone around you thinks you'll beat it and turn out okay, because it's all invisible. The symptoms show up but the pain, the numbness and the inability to live, it's all invisible. I stopped fearing death a long time ago, dying does freak me out but what awaits me are a few minutes of bravery that'll save me from years of unbearable pain. Sometimes I get a slither of hope, that I'll be ok. But I return to this. I need to end it, because I do not feel human anymore. I've lost my soul.

This is another favorite of mine, Final Fantasy 9.

You've got me tearing up over here with your story. You convey your thoughts so beautifully. This post really touched me on so many levels because it truly felt like you were telling my own story.

I am so, so sorry that life has brought you to this point. I wish I could give you the biggest hug right now.

May your soul find its peace tonight. I'll be thinking of you. Fly and finally be free, sweet one.

 

[Rocket]

Thank you for sharing that, it's very moving. "Because it's all invisible" puts it perfectly, so many people are going through pain but because it's invisible people don't know (or don't want to deal with it). Your courage to make your decision sounds reasoned and deserves respect. Wishing you bliss and peace with whatever you choose.

 

[JRSEchelon]

Your words are riveting and full of such strong emotions. I like you have had been touched by FF games and their stories. I'll definitely always keep you in my thoughts now whenever I play any of them..Sending my very best and warm thoughts and love for your soul.

 

[arcadia]

Drinking it in a minute, please wish me luck for a peaceful transition and give me courage!

 

[holohound]

reading your story, you have been so brave all throughout, braver still now in taking back control. I hope there is only peace and calm for you on the other side. Rest easy dearest stranger

 

[Foxes]

Drinking it in a minute, please wish me luck for a peaceful transition and give me courage!

Deep breaths.