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DynamicDepression

Deranged
Mar 28, 2022
352
I'm finishing up some letters tonight and I have the house to myself tomorrow morning so I think I'll finally go through with hanging. I'm scared I'll mess it up or chicken out, but at least I have a plan.
 
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kosameAmagai

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Apr 25, 2022
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i really wish you the best <3 , hope you find peace
 
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DynamicDepression

Deranged
Mar 28, 2022
352
What's your plan?
I'm gonna do partial suspension from the door to the attic. Dad will get home a few hours later and find me. I'll have my will (doesn't really matter if they follow through, it's mostly just a wish on my part), a suicide note, and letters to each of my family members on a desk nearby in clear sight. I hope I won't traumatize him too much, but this is the best way to go about it for me.
 
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JinnDX

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Apr 26, 2022
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Hope you find peace. See you on the other side.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I have never attempted hanging because of the fear of failure, but I wish you the best in whatever happens. I hope you find relief from your suffering.
 
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DynamicDepression

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Mar 28, 2022
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Update: I chickened out when I couldn't get into a good position. When I tried it the first time a few days ago I almost passed out instantly, but I couldn't find that sweet spot again. Then I heard a car and was afraid it was someone coming home early.

I'm so scared that I'll never build up the courage to go through with it. The pain is unbearable but survival instincts are still much stronger. I hate this so much.
 
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JamieJambo

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Apr 17, 2022
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It's a near impossible task in my eyes

Ultimately our biggest fear is the fear of death

Forcing ourselves to die goes against everything in our nature
 
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CommitSudoku

never interfere with a lifespan reaping
Feb 12, 2022
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I'm so scared that I'll never build up the courage to go through with it. The pain is unbearable but survival instincts are still much stronger. I hate this so much.
I relate to this, I'm sorry you also feel this way, it's a horrible position to be in. With hanging I also worry it won't be quick enough, which adds more fear. Best wishes whatever you decide to do and I hope you can find peace.
 
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