Thinking of ending it

[ReadyasEver]

Fucker did it as part of a dreadful N scam. A lot of bullshit is posted on here about my supposed deficit in empathy, kindness, whatever, but if you saw that crap go down you'd perhaps know why that is.

Yeah, the only difference between you and me is the verbal aspect. You call them out, I just ignore them. My bullshit monitor has always been finely tuned for the most part. Like our old buddy okyeah.

 

[JustAboutDone]

Like our old buddy okyeah.

Quiet without him here

 

[ReadyasEver]

Quiet without him here

It is but in a good way lol.

 

[Lara Francis]

Had anyone heard from Laura ?? She just went quiet one day mid Decenber and hasn't posted since I understood she was in a bad way but seemed to be getting better ?? Laura if your out there reading this reply to let the community know your in a good place

Sorry.i have been in a bad place and didnt want to get into bother by coming on here but sod them.i am back for now as i miss this community but am being monitored daily.my SN and meto was confiscated and i was so mad.! But ordered more.x

 

[Lara Francis]

I think she's still alive. None of us would leave without saying goodbye, right?

No i wouldnt !

 

[Avicii]

Sorry.i have been in a bad place and didnt want to get into bother by coming on here but sod them.i am back for now as i miss this community but am being monitored daily.my SN and meto was confiscated and i was so mad.! But ordered more.x

Assume your in hospital again what happened thought you were out ?

 

[MsM3talGamer]

Fucker did it as part of a dreadful N scam. A lot of bullshit is posted on here about my supposed deficit in empathy, kindness, whatever, but if you saw that crap go down you'd perhaps know why that is.

I always liked how you called out the okyeah jerk on his bullshit and blatant misogyny. He was never able to win an argument with you however much he did mental gymnastics. Tbh I'm surprised he lasted as long as he did here.

 

[Chinaski]

I always liked how you called out the okyeah jerk on his bullshit and blatant misogyny. He was never able to win an argument with you however much he did mental gymnastics. Tbh I'm surprised he lasted as long as he did here.

Hah, cheers. I did notice many of those threads you're describing were seen as offensive enough to warrant immediate deletion, so one can only speculate as to why he was allowed to remain thereafter.

 

[Johnnythefox]

okyeah jerk

Yeah! He made it on to my ignore list.

 

[MsM3talGamer]

Yeah! He made it on to my ignore list.

Tbh I never put him on ignore because I enjoyed watching him trying to spar with Chinaski. It was pretty entertaining watching him desperately TRY to win an argument. He never stood a chance in hell against Chinaski though. LOL

 

[couragetodie]

Fucker did it as part of a dreadful N scam. A lot of bullshit is posted on here about my supposed deficit in empathy, kindness, whatever, but if you saw that crap go down you'd perhaps know why that is.

Not surprising that scammers prey upon those most vulnerable. Were assisted suicide legal, one would not need to deal with this.

 

[ReadyasEver]

Not surprising that scammers prey upon those most vulnerable. Were assisted suicide legal, one would not need to deal with this.

The awful side of humanity rears it's ugly head as much as the compassionate side. Don't like it, but it has been that way forever.

 

[couragetodie]

The awful side of humanity rears it's ugly head as much as the compassionate side. Don't like it, but it has been that way forever.

I am not free of guilt in my life. I have hurt many people when in bouts of depression and psychosis. That said, in my heart I don't want to harm others. Tbh, my desire to CTB feels like I am setting myself to hurt others. Do you grapple with the morality of ctb?

 

[Johnnythefox]

trying to spar with Chinaski

Yes, there's a few heavyweights on here that I would not like to get in the ring with.

I had a run in with okyeah, he had more shit come out his mouth than a sewage pipe in
India.

 

[Lara Francis]

Assume your in hospital again what happened thought you were out ?

Hi.
I am out now after a month.
I was not allowed on the internet and was hospitalised as i was considered a danger to myself..
I hope you are ok.
I have missed being on here and its nice to talk to like minded friends again. X

 

[ReadyasEver]

I am not free of guilt in my life. I have hurt many people when in bouts of depression and psychosis. That said, in my heart I don't want to harm others. Tbh, my desire to CTB feels like I am setting myself to hurt others. Do you grapple with the morality of ctb?

At times, but after I try and listen to all the talks, watch videos, it just boils down to the simple fact: This your life, you've done the best you can, we are human which means we are fallible as hell, try to leave positive mark and influence on those you about, then do with it as you see fit. It took sometime to come this, a lot of contemplating, wrangling and tears. But once I realized this, I calmed down and found some peaceful feelings. That is, I am in control of the situation and I'm not worried anymore about it. I did the best I could to leave a good mark on everyone I know.

 

[Avicii]

Hi.
I am out now after a month.
I was not allowed on the internet and was hospitalised as i was considered a danger to myself..
I hope you are ok.
I have missed being on here and its nice to talk to like minded friends again. X

Damn a month guess that sucked !! How you coped without the net for a month anyone knows - this forum has missed you I think some thought the worst !!! I guessed it might have been a hospital stay what happened did you attempt again how did they find your SN

 

[Lara Francis]

Damn a month guess that sucked !! How you coped without the net for a month anyone knows - this forum has missed you I think some thought the worst !!! I guessed it might have been a hospital stay what happened did you attempt again how did they find your SN

Yes.
I made the mistake of telling my closest friend i had SN and met which she insisted she took and said would return to me in 24hrs but still waiting !so just ordered more.i told her that i had tested it so i knew what to expect.she was upset and looking at it from her point of view,this is what a good friend would do i guess because they dont want you to die.great to be back.not coming on here was the hardest.

 

[Avicii]

Yes.
I made the mistake of telling my closest friend i had SN and met which she insisted she took and said would return to me in 24hrs but still waiting !so just ordered more.i told her that i had tested it so i knew what to expect.she was upset and looking at it from her point of view,this is what a good friend would do i guess because they dont want you to die.great to be back.not coming on here was the hardest.

What was psych hospital like this time tougher or much the same how did you get out ha

 

[Lara Francis]

What was psych hospital like this time tougher or much the same how did you get out ha

Much the same and i have learnt that if you take the meds , and keep yourself to yourself it allows you to be discharged sooner. It also helps to play the part and not let on how you really feel.i would never say it gets easier and i felt isolated without internet access and self harm is a definate no go area..x