Venting Thinking about my younger sister

[Reflection]

She's 16 and is suicidal too, if I go then I worry she might follow soon. We are very close so and I'm basically the only person she trusts the most, because the rest of our family just dont understand her at all.

They're all easily dismissive and often end up making things about themselves, they also like to point the finger at me saying that "I am the reason why she's like this" more often than not, when I've been the one listening to her and trying to help her, and was able to convince her get back to school...

It's all so frustrating, I think my death would cause a mess for both my ex and family. And I don't want to hurt anybody, but I also am not ever listened to. I tried crying out as loud as I could and got ignored, I can't continue on like this.

 

[fm3a]

i'm really sorry, i completely understand. i have two younger sisters who i am very close with and i am realizing that in thinking about/planning to ctb i can't tell if sooner is better than later - both of them live very far from me (including one living overseas) and i feel like i will feel better about going through with it (and maybe they will be able to cope better) if i have the chance to see them (and a few other family members) one last time. there are more people to factor in than i initially thought but i know i just really don't want anybody who i love to have to see me after

 

[Worndown]

Any chance you two can break away from family and live somewhere else? It sounds like you need each other.