Thinking about my friends suicide

[Funeralprincess]

Every day I've thought of my friends suicide and how her reasons for death are the same as mine: love and heartbreak. Her ex drove her to that point, and led her to believe they'd be together again just as mine had done to me. He made it seem so legit too and when she worryingly asked him if he's being honest because lying to be nice would hurt her mental health, he said "of course I'm being honest baby! I just need some time to figure me out!"
Well, it wasn't ever true. He knew how badly she'd just asked for transparency because of how it would affect her mental state and he didn't care. When she killed herself, he tried to deflect and blame others, and then said "she would've done it anyway" which as someone who's been her friend for years, is NOT true. She ended up catching him dating a new girl, and it destroyed her because he wasn't just honest. After she died, he also posted on Facebook how he wishes he could've seen the signs…
Let's just say I commented on his post and got put in Facebook jail

I just think about how he drove her to that point and how it's crazy I'm going to off myself for the same reason due to the years of effects it's had on me. I miss her everyday, and hate him for pushing her over the edge. I think about her laugh and her smile, and how she always loved others. It's so sad how the world will take a mentally ill persons love and then discard them after.
I'm so sad and I hope when. I die I can see my friend again

 

[Teddybear]

Every day I've thought of my friends suicide and how her reasons for death are the same as mine: love and heartbreak. Her ex drove her to that point, and led her to believe they'd be together again just as mine had done to me. He made it seem so legit too and when she worryingly asked him if he's being honest because lying to be nice would hurt her mental health, he said "of course I'm being honest baby! I just need some time to figure me out!"
Well, it wasn't ever true. He knew how badly she'd just asked for transparency because of how it would affect her mental state and he didn't care. When she killed herself, he tried to deflect and blame others, and then said "she would've done it anyway" which as someone who's been her friend for years, is NOT true. She ended up catching him dating a new girl, and it destroyed her because he wasn't just honest. After she died, he also posted on Facebook how he wishes he could've seen the signs…
Let's just say I commented on his post and got put in Facebook jail

I just think about how he drove her to that point and how it's crazy I'm going to off myself for the same reason due to the years of effects it's had on me. I miss her everyday, and hate him for pushing her over the edge. I think about her laugh and her smile, and how she always loved others. It's so sad how the world will take a mentally ill persons love and then discard them after.
I'm so sad and I hope when. I die I can see my friend again

Plz don't consider X'ing yourself out of heartbreak. With close to sixty years on my back I can assure you, that broken hearts mend more traceless over time than broken bones.

Makes me question that whole "love thing" in the first place. Maybe it is just a temporary hormonal imbalance?

And I am sure your friend would want you to live a long and happy life. I know mine would have wanted me to, and I am going to dissapoint him in this. :(

But I hope you can keep your candle burning.

 

[FuneralCry]

OP, if people invalidate your suffering on here then just take no notice of them. They don't understand what it's like to live your life, everyone experiences life differently after all.
To me it's not surprising that so many people decide to ctb in a world like this. Other people really can be cruel and can create so much suffering.

 

[Teddybear]

Death is no beginning, its the end. Reminding people of that is not "invalidating their suffering". Heartbreak - as terrible as it might feel at the time it happens - is only a temporary pain.

X'ing yourself for *that* is like jumping off the bridge because you failed an exam in high school or didn't get that dream job you were hoping for.

I myself have a number of women to show for, who once would have sworn every oath up and down the aisle that they are ready to die for me or at least with me at that time.

Yet today they wouldn't even acknowledge that they ever loved *me* in the first place. Now I am just a fake and always have been (in their eyes at least).

This world doesn't have to be "shitty" per se. For some of us it is and that won't change. But for others the suffering - as bad as it feels right now - is just temporary. Telling people that death is eternal, while heartache is not, does not disrespect their suffering.

If someone wants to go, they'll go. But the OP herself wrote "how it's crazy I'm going to off myself for the same reason …" and while I wouldn't call it crazy, I call it sad.

I am not going to try and stop anyone from taking the exit - but I won't be cheering them on either. Specially not if I think that given a few years time they wouldn't even recognize the person who wrote that.

 

[Funeralprincess]

Plz don't consider X'ing yourself out of heartbreak. With close to sixty years on my back I can assure you, that broken hearts mend more traceless over time than broken bones.

Makes me question that whole "love thing" in the first place. Maybe it is just a temporary hormonal imbalance?

And I am sure your friend would want you to live a long and happy life. I know mine would have wanted me to, and I am going to dissapoint him in this. :(

But I hope you can keep your candle burning.

Lol temporary hormonal imbalance. I can tell you've never been deeply in love before… it's been five years and the love never disappeared and it's gotten worse. Far from temporary so maybe, don't speak on shit you don't understand. I can't wait to kill my self. I look forward to it and considering love is the second top reason people commit suicide, I heavily disagree with your claims. My friend would've supported my choice to die just as I supported her because I always told her if she ever did do that I'd never judge or be angry. She'd support me all the way because she's a true friend

Death is no beginning, its the end. Reminding people of that is not "invalidating their suffering". Heartbreak - as terrible as it might feel at the time it happens - is only a temporary pain.

X'ing yourself for *that* is like jumping off the bridge because you failed an exam in high school or didn't get that dream job you were hoping for.

I myself have a number of women to show for, who once would have sworn every oath up and down the aisle that they are ready to die for me or at least with me at that time.

Yet today they wouldn't even acknowledge that they ever loved *me* in the first place. Now I am just a fake and always have been (in their eyes at least).

This world doesn't have to be "shitty" per se. For some of us it is and that won't change. But for others the suffering - as bad as it feels right now - is just temporary. Telling people that death is eternal, while heartache is not, does not disrespect their suffering.

If someone wants to go, they'll go. But the OP herself wrote "how it's crazy I'm going to off myself for the same reason …" and while I wouldn't call it crazy, I call it sad.

I am not going to try and stop anyone from taking the exit - but I won't be cheering them on either. Specially not if I think that given a few years time they wouldn't even recognize the person who wrote that.

Comparing heartbreak to an exam or dream job is idiotic. Your weak comparisons alone explain why women couldn't tolerate you. Now, move along. And you don't know me or how long I've been dealing with this but as I said, seeing your idiotic comparisons, it makes sense why women want zero to do with you. That experience in terms of you is well justified

OP, if people invalidate your suffering on here then just take no notice of them. They don't understand what it's like to live your life, everyone experiences life differently after all.
To me it's not surprising that so many people decide to ctb in a world like this. Other people really can be cruel and can create so much suffering.

They're already invalidating it and no surprise, it's all men doing it lol. Men think with their cocks not their heart so that's expected. Several people never move on from their true love in fact, there's support groups for it so these men who are invalidating me I pay no mind to them. They have no value essentially and they most likely are single because they used women so of course they can say one will get over it. I guess they forget not all of us sleep around to deal with pain