More thoughts about hanging
To me hanging seems quite painful, I've already tried it before and when it happened my head started to create very crazy thoughts, like thoughts that I couldn't put into words started to rush out of my head but in a way that was a reaction to the pressure of my neck being squeezed by the rope (it was pretty tight around my neck, hadnt started to hang but it was very tight), it was such a nervewracking experience that I ended up pissing myself and had to put the rope down and take a break, I went off hanging after that but I'm wondering if taking some kind of anti anxiety/sedative medication prior to hanging would bypass this and help me hang myself (I'm not sure if what happened was a direct sign of some kind of survival instinct, just more that I really struggled with hanging)