Thinking about drowning/hanging

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Would certain meds help? Thinking about certain anti anxiety meds to go unconscious while hanging or drowning in the sea at night while also bypassing hypothermia

 

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More thoughts about hanging

To me hanging seems quite painful, I've already tried it before and when it happened my head started to create very crazy thoughts, like thoughts that I couldn't put into words started to rush out of my head but in a way that was a reaction to the pressure of my neck being squeezed by the rope (it was pretty tight around my neck, hadnt started to hang but it was very tight), it was such a nervewracking experience that I ended up pissing myself and had to put the rope down and take a break, I went off hanging after that but I'm wondering if taking some kind of anti anxiety/sedative medication prior to hanging would bypass this and help me hang myself (I'm not sure if what happened was a direct sign of some kind of survival instinct, just more that I really struggled with hanging)

 

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Trying to hang, trying to feel comfortable. I think partial hanging is more comfortable, I just have so many difficult tensions racing through me as I go through this. If I'd had been more secure/resilient/I'm not sure what the word is but I can feel the way I am a empty void on the basis of it, maybe strong to withstand other peoples aggression I wouldn't have turned out like this

 

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Tried it again, I think it worked this time. Pulled it off because it felt a bit intense, not sure if I'm able to pull it off but I desperately want to, I want to die

 

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I'm thinking about drowning in the sea at night. It will take a lot of guts.

 

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I'm thinking about drowning in the sea at night. It will take a lot of guts.

Yes but I wonder if taking some meds beforehand would help bypass the hypothermia

Had another go at hanging, didn't work. I am a weak male and wish I could find meds that would kill me, I do not like hanging but I other than trying drowning I'm not sure what else I can do