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lobsterbisque
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- Mar 2, 2024
- 21
Dunno if I'm posting in the right place but fuck it. I think it's probable that I'm gonna die soon. Either by ctb or just body giving out. I feel it within me that I'm on the way out. I haven't been here that long but made a few friends well I consider them friends not sure if it's the same for them but there u go. I already dumped on a couple a d said more than I should've. Not used to doin that I don't really talk about stuff. Now I dunno whether to say bye or not cos already feel guilty about saying what I've said already. Do I just carry on lik normal til time comes or do I say goodbye. Idk what to do anymore with anything anymore tbh. They've made the last few weeks a bit more bearable so I feel I wanna say bye and tell them that I'm grateful but I don't want a pity party or anyone feeling like I've just put that on them. I know they have been there as well so I know they would understand but I just dunno..... I'm sad to say goodbye as well. Cos they're good ppl. I'll miss them even tho I won't know about it once I'm gone. Bit scared of going too as well. Like what's it gonna be like etc dunno just rambling now. I don't even know if good idea to post this but I dunno who to say it to. Not many of them are that active on here I don't think. But if by any chance anyone sees it and I ain't around in future I'm sorry. I feel like a let down cos I'm always sayin I'm there for ppl but what if I ain't no more. I mean everything I say but if I'm not around am I just bn a fraud. Should I stop sayin it. I dunno so many random questions and thoughts buzzing about my thick skull. I just feel like a bit of a dick head now so I'm gonna leave it there