A few days ago, I bought some SN and had been waiting for it to arrive but then the order got canceled, and I didn't even get an email. I reached out about a refund, and they just told me to wait. Maybe I'll get it back, maybe I won't. Honestly, I don't really care about that.
What's crushing me isn't the money or the possible scam. It's that I truly believed I was going to get the SN. For those few short days, I had a sense of peace I hadn't felt in a long time. Quietly, in my heart, I've been saying goodbye to everything around me.
I'd spent months thinking about this before placing the order. I grieved my own planned death. After that, what I found was serenity.
And now, I've been thrown right back into uncertainty. I've spent hours today searching for other options, other sources. It's horrible. It's absolutely unbearable.
What's crushing me isn't the money or the possible scam. It's that I truly believed I was going to get the SN. For those few short days, I had a sense of peace I hadn't felt in a long time. Quietly, in my heart, I've been saying goodbye to everything around me.
I'd spent months thinking about this before placing the order. I grieved my own planned death. After that, what I found was serenity.
And now, I've been thrown right back into uncertainty. I've spent hours today searching for other options, other sources. It's horrible. It's absolutely unbearable.
