Tempest
Gathering courage to take my exit
- Oct 21, 2021
- 40
There isn't much in my life currently that's fulfilling. Mainly I'll be leaving behind the opportunity to see things I was looking forward to. There are a few movie adaptations that I've been anticipating for quite a while. I follow figure skating and I would have liked to see the rest of the season, culminating in the 2022 Olympics. My friend's birthday is in the spring and she's planning a party themed around a video game we both like. Small, but personally meaningful, things like that.
It makes me sad to think about how I'm leaving those things behind, but it's also a comforting reminder of how life will go on without me. The movies will get made, the Olympics will happen, my friends' lives will continue. If I were 80 years old on my deathbed I'd still be sad to leave the things that brought me joy, and there will always be new things on the horizon that I would have liked to experience. There isn't much more I'd want to do with my personal life aside from finish a few minor projects and visit some dream destinations (which is vacation and not even "real life"). Since I don't have any major personal desires going unfulfilled, I'd say I'm leaving the world in a decent position.
It makes me sad to think about how I'm leaving those things behind, but it's also a comforting reminder of how life will go on without me. The movies will get made, the Olympics will happen, my friends' lives will continue. If I were 80 years old on my deathbed I'd still be sad to leave the things that brought me joy, and there will always be new things on the horizon that I would have liked to experience. There isn't much more I'd want to do with my personal life aside from finish a few minor projects and visit some dream destinations (which is vacation and not even "real life"). Since I don't have any major personal desires going unfulfilled, I'd say I'm leaving the world in a decent position.
