Things you'll be leaving behind

[ChaseBees]

I would love a thread where we just recognize things we will be leaving. I would prefer they be nice things, but that is your freedom. Just allowing myself to acknowledge these nice parts of life and let them go, like letting a balloon's string slip from your hands...

I'll start. I have 74 plants in my room. They gave me reason to get out of bed so I could open my blinds.
When autumn leaves start falling from the trees and leave big heaps on the ground of orange and gold.
When you mispronounced a word and someone would repeat it back to me and laugh.
Music.
The way a cold floor feels when you lay down.

There. That feels better than letting them all jostle in my head

 

[Versailles]

I would have to leave:
One Piece, the music, the programming, the good food and the sex, are the things that make me stay longer.

 

[Peel_the_Banana]

I'm sorry but there are many people who don't have anything nice that they are leaving behind. It's not necessarily that there aren't nice things around them. It's that depression, anhedonia, CPTSD or another close pal has robbed them of the enjoyment of simple things.

I am one such person. Unfortunately even posting here is often just passing time for me until the inevitable.

 

[Peel_the_Banana]

No but many do have nice things, but should we ignore that one little bit of light some have just because others don't?

I posted about MY experience. I mentioned people who feel like me.

If you don't feel like me then do like most people do and move on.

YOU DONT HAVE TO NEGATE MY POST!

My post did not negate OP. In fact I acknowledged OP with an emoji. Not sure what the purpose of your post is. Should I just fucking disappear and keep quiet because it suits you??

 

[ChaseBees]

I'm sorry but there are many people who don't have anything nice that they are leaving behind. It's not necessarily that there aren't nice things around them. It's that depression, anhedonia, CPTSD or another close pal has robbed them of the enjoyment of simple things.

I am one such person. Unfortunately even posting here is often just passing time for me until the inevitable.

I understand. I wasn't trying to diminish the voices of those who don't have things they'll miss. I never said everyone has things they enjoy, just that U thought it would be a nice place to compile thoughts

 

[AntHydra]

I leave behind the music, which makes me forget about everything for a moment, the music to which I erupt into joyful sprints, the music to which I forget I exist and can fantasize.

I leave behind those fantasies; I'll leave behind characters and stories created by my own mind, forever unfinished and incomplete, forever inaccessible to change, but preserved in the drawings and writings I did.

I leave behind that ability to draw, that I had no talent for and had to cultivate over many years. That refuge and a skill I could ne proud of.

I leave behind videogames and books and comics and shows; my nostalgia and fun memories and theories and references, leave behind my desire to wait for what's next, forever unable to know the next part to this or that piece of media.

I leave behind my desire to learn; once it was stronger and now it is dull, but buried beneath much, it is still there. I still had much to read on Norse Mythology. I still had much to read on entomology. I loved those subjects, but I must ultimately leave them behind.

I leave behind my political and social convictions; my desire to fight and work for a better world, my desire to help those disadvantaged. Never could I accomplish those things with what I am now, so I will let go of the desire, though the convictions will stay until my spirit evaporates.

I leave behind a promising future full of prospects. Privilege, intelligence, able-bodiedness. Many doors were open, but I know they will close. They must close.

I leave behind my kindness and understanding that I spent many years building and refining. The desire to be good for other people, the desire to help and comfort them as a true, trustworthy friend. I may have failed as that friend many times, but I always kept trying, and my human progress is something I will leave behind.

There is much I'll leave behind. A whole person's worth of thoughts and feelings and desires and hopes, all thrown to the abyss. It's a daunting thought, yet a tantalising one. A bitter yet delicious one.
All of us will leave so much behind to fall apart and decay after the essence which glues it together evaporates.
So much pleasure and so much pain, shed all at once.
I tragedy; its catharsis.

 

[Ch92921]

Cost for ceremony.

 

[Peel_the_Banana]

I understand. I wasn't trying to diminish the voices of those who don't have things they'll miss.

Didn't think you were at all. Maybe I could have worded that another way.

 

[FuneralCry]

There are many things that I will be glad to leave behind. No more despair, no more stress, no more feeling ill, no more thoughts and it is the end of me. I was never meant for this world. I dislike everything about life. All I want is to be nothing, to sleep forever. I cannot enjoy anything. My life is so empty. I died a long time ago.

 

[idiot_dad]

I would leave behind my worries and problems - but they would be handed down to my kids. That's where I'm stuck. I desperately want to die, but don't wan to hand down my problems to kids who don't deserve that.

 

[Party__3nd5]

Hi, i am really new in this page, and about the topic, i leave a child who hasn't yet born and this its all.

 

[Party__3nd5]

I'm leaving my two small kids and would never do this if I hadn't been catastrophically injured.

They and my husband will be better off without me

I think the same, maybe he would live better without me if he doesn't know me, but I can't take the initiative, I feel like I have until his birth to act and that only increases my misery.
I think it's worse for your family to believe that you die by accident than by decision, by the way can I ask, if it is true that a child cheers even a little life?

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Nothing much besides a corpse.

 

[Snake of Eden]

grief for family

 

[clown_17]

-The few good moments with family
-the chance of enjoying life later
-seeing the future and how it goes
-my dog

On the other side:
-all the struggles in my life
-dealing with a bad future

 

[Ch92921]

Some ash and bones

 

[forgotten15]

All the pain i had to feel in this life…and my animals.

 

[PinkSakura]

My phone & my laptop with all my music

 

[diphylleia_Grayi]

Just sadness and disappointment. Debt too probably cause I don't think my parents can afford a burial so they're gonna need to ask for help.

 

[summers]

Just sadness and disappointment. Debt too probably cause I don't think my parents can afford a burial so they're gonna need to ask for help.

Why don't you pay for your cremation now. This way, you don't burden your parents with the cost of burying you. It would be the responsible thing to do.

It should cost less than $1000 in the us.

 

[Ch92921]

My phone & my laptop with all my music

Asi

Why don't you pay for your cremation now. This way, you don't burden your parents with the cost of burying you. It would be the responsible thing to do.

It should cost less than $1000 in t

Here in Switzerland 3500 $for normal ceremony, 1500$ for cremetion ceremony

 

[diphylleia_Grayi]

Why don't you pay for your cremation now. This way, you don't burden your parents with the cost of burying you. It would be the responsible thing to do.

It should cost less than $1000 in the us.

Cause I'm brazilian and unemployed (one of the many reasons why I'm doing this). Everything is ridiculously expensive, we are struggling to eat. I'm already killing myself and leaving them with unimaginable grief, I don't think there's a way for me to be "responsible" about this.

 

[summers]

Cause I'm brazilian and unemployed (one of the many reasons why I'm doing this). Everything is ridiculously expensive, we are struggling to eat. I'm already killing myself and leaving them with unimaginable grief, I don't think there's a way for me to be "responsible" about this.

Actually, you know it's going to be tough for them financially, so on top of causing them grief, you are hurting them in their ability to afford other necessities. I'm sorry, but that's terribly selfish of you.

Maybe do the right thing, get a job and the money to handle your own business instead of putting it on your family.

 

[diphylleia_Grayi]

Actually, you know it's going to be tough for them financially, so on top of causing them grief, you are hurting them in their ability to afford other necessities. I'm sorry, but that's terribly selfish of you.

Maybe do the right thing, get a job and the money to handle your own business instead of putting it on your family.

lmfao, am I on the right website? lol all you know about my life and situation comes from a few sentences you read on this thread. You don't know what it's like to live where I live and how I live so mind your own damn business. Literally everyone here is leaving problems to their families once they leave. Should everyone just keep living a miserable life they hate just so they don't hurt other people? If that's your logic I think you're on the wrong place. I'm pretty sure my parents will be able to pay for the around 2k brl they'll need to bury me. They already spent so much time and money raising my worthless ass, that's nothing.

 

[summers]

lmfao, am I on the right website? lol all you know about my life and situation comes from a few sentences you read on this thread. You don't know what it's like to live where I live and how I live so mind your own damn business. Literally everyone here is leaving problems to their families once they leave. Should everyone just keep living a miserable life they hate just so they don't hurt other people? If that's your logic I think you're on the wrong place. I'm pretty sure my parents will be able to pay for the around 2k brl they'll need to bury me. They already spent so much time and money raising my worthless ass, that's nothing.

Yes, you are on the right website. You're right, I don't know shit about your life. All I know is that you yourself said you are fine fucking over your parents financially. Good for you.

But don't presume to know what other SS members are leaving for their family. I myself am leaving quite a bit of money, and several valuable possessions to a person I love. Everything is already set for a very easy transfer. I also know several people on here personally who at the very least, have money set aside for their funeral/cremation.

I'm not arguing with you. You only have one chance to do right by the people you love. It's up to you what you choose to do.

Wish you all the best.

 

[PinkSakura]

Asi

What's asi?

 

[lifecouldbedream]

Unfortunately I've already left behind a lot.

Having good times with my friends, which is long in the past.
Being listened to by my friends and family. Whenever I try talking to them I am simply brushed off.
Not being stressed by daily life. Before, every morning was a new adventure but now I resist the urge to hurt everything around me.
My cats.
My family.
My garden, which I've now neglected.
The feeling of being entranced by beautiful music and being in a completely different mood for some time.

 

[KayKay]

My beautiful children

Only reason I'm still here

 

[Darkover]

the thing i be leaving behind is a terrible horrible life good riddance

 

[demuic]

A horrible and lonely existence.