Things you will never experience ?

[Fadeawaaaay]

Do you ever grieve for all the experiences you know you will never have again? True love? Travel? Family?

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not want any of those things. They do not interest me. I want nothing to do with life. Nothing would ever make me want to live. I just want to sleep forever. Life is certainly not for me.

 

[Circles]

Well for starters yea of course I've always wanted to travel to exotic places so I'll never experience that. Never going to experience having friends, a relationship, an actual loving family. I never got to go to a history museum. Never get to hike mountains I used to dream of hiking. Even though it all seems trivial and pointless it's sad thinking of this.

 

[Ch92921]

A kiss

I am so ugly.

 

[Pluto]

I won't experience being there to lament missing out on all of those things.

 

[Deformationalplagio]

I will never expierence or never have expierenced/never will. Im deformed not lightly and no its not bodydysmorphia i mean a real facial skull deformity wich twisted my face arround its own axis. I wish i could expierence something other then eating sleeping and taking a bathroom. Sadly this is all what life has to give me other then being jealous about everyone expierenceing arround me. Im a spectator nothing more. Live ttv and maybe an expierenced observer. Nothing more

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Well for starters yea of course I've always wanted to travel to exotic places so I'll never experience that. Never going to experience having friends, a relationship, an actual loving family. I never got to go to a history museum. Never get to hike mountains I used to dream of hiking. Even though it all seems trivial and pointless it's sad thinking of this.

No history museums? Where the heck do you live?

 

[drune11]

All the time. It's weird and embarrassing to admit these irl so I never really do but it's so frustrating seeing people take for granted the most minute things that I'd give anything for.

Fuck it I'm going to make a list and I don't care - taking a road trip with someone, being caressed when feeling down, having sex on my birthday, having sex where the other person wants you, a woman causing me to orgasm, grabbing a girls ass that's wearing leggings, being cooked for, going pumpkin picking with my kids, coming home on Friday and being excited about doing something, being able to look at photos fondly, feeling wanted by a woman, having a woman smile when she looks in my eyes, lying in bed next to someone, picking up my children and seeing them laugh, having some sort of tradition or custom or even an inside joke with someone that loves me.

I remember alway being upset when I thought about how my friend and his now-wife had this restaurant they would go to a few times a year and it was like they're thing and I never knew what something like that feels like. Any of it, from just having a partner, to actually having someone to do things with, to having some sort of bonding experience.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

All the time. It's weird and embarrassing to admit these irl so I never really do but it's so frustrating seeing people take for granted the most minute things that I'd give anything for.

Fuck it I'm going to make a list and I don't care - taking a road trip with someone, being caressed when feeling down, having sex on my birthday, having sex where the other person wants you, a woman causing me to orgasm, grabbing a girls ass that's wearing leggings, being cooked for, going pumpkin picking with my kids, coming home on Friday and being excited about doing something, being able to look at photos fondly, feeling wanted by a woman, having a woman smile when she looks in my eyes, lying in bed next to someone, picking up my children and seeing them laugh, having some sort of tradition or custom or even an inside joke with someone that loves me.

I remember alway being upset when I thought about how my friend and his now-wife had this restaurant they would go to a few times a year and it was like they're thing and I never knew what something like that feels like. Any of it, from just having a partner, to actually having someone to do things with, to having some sort of bonding experience.

That's poignant and sad. Thank you for sharing.

 

[existtosuffer]

I grieve because I know these things didn't make me happy & I won't ever have stable emotions.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

That's poignant and sad. Thank you for sharing.

All the time. It's weird and embarrassing to admit these irl so I never really do but it's so frustrating seeing people take for granted the most minute things that I'd give anything for.

Fuck it I'm going to make a list and I don't care - taking a road trip with someone, being caressed when feeling down, having sex on my birthday, having sex where the other person wants you, a woman causing me to orgasm, grabbing a girls ass that's wearing leggings, being cooked for, going pumpkin picking with my kids, coming home on Friday and being excited about doing something, being able to look at photos fondly, feeling wanted by a woman, having a woman smile when she looks in my eyes, lying in bed next to someone, picking up my children and seeing them laugh, having some sort of tradition or custom or even an inside joke with someone that loves me.

I remember alway being upset when I thought about how my friend and his now-wife had this restaurant they would go to a few times a year and it was like they're thing and I never knew what something like that feels like. Any of it, from just having a partner, to actually having someone to do things with, to having some sort of bonding experience.

I remember sharing so many lovely moments with my ex girlfriend… I didn't exactly take them for granted but I had no idea all of it would come to an end so suddenly… It was unimaginable… And now life is not worth living quite honestly

 

[Snake of Eden]

I will miss out in knowing what it is like to be rich and extravagant. Finding reciprocal love relationship. Being beautiful, healthy and strong. Being socially adored and respected. Looking at the future with excitement as to what it would bring.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I will miss out in knowing what it is like to be rich and extravagant. Finding reciprocal love relationship. Being beautiful, healthy and strong. Being socially adored and respected. Looking at the future with excitement as to what it would bring.

I've had all of those experiences quite honestly… It's the only thing that makes life worth living to me and without them… Time to order some N

 

[LakatosDiogenesz]

Non-shitty politicians lmao, that's the only one I'm 100% sure about.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I will miss out on looking at the mirror and actually liking what i see. Getting up in the morning and feeling grateful for being alive. Appreciating the small things in life like beauty of nature that I cant value now because of my dread. Being neurotypical and normal with no social issues

 

[Kobusu]

Not really. They would be nice, sure, but I would rather be dead sooner and not have those experiences than live long enough to. I've experienced all that I want to. True love and travel are nice but fleeting, and life doesn't ever really stop hurting.

 

[Lifeless mindset]

I won't be able to experience having kids, having a wife, traveling, my favorite YouTube/ twitch streamers. Its okay though, I've had plenty of good times in my life. Its time to try some place else.

 

[GreenTree]

Not walking my daughter down the aisle.
Not being with my partner.
Not enjoying a football.
Not enjoying family.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Not walking my daughter down the aisle.
Not being with my partner.
Not enjoying a football.
Not enjoying family.

That's really quite sad … I'm sorry

 

[rozzy]

Mental illness makes all those things unenjoyable. It dulls the experiences. So no I don't miss them.
Being BPD/depressed feels like a weirdly extreme wokeness. Sorta like in the 2018 movie "Bird Box" starring Sandra Bullock where people go crazy and start mass ctb.

Without the normie veil nothing is worth experiencing anymore.

 

[alwaysdopesick]

there are things I miss that are pointless memories now, I can't remember the last time I was truly happy. I'm sure I could potentially be happy again with a well paying easy job and a wife and kids, but who knows maybe I'd still be miserable.

 

[Atraxa]

The feeling of a girl saying she wants me and loves me and me believing it.
Looking in the mirror and being content


Many other things I could list, but those are the two I would want the most.

 

[Bot]

to many things, too many dreams, maybe getting healthy again but tbh i dont think i will ever experience these things, even if i dont ctb:/

 

[Arrow]

i'm starting to think i won't ever experience looking up at the earth from the moon while cracking open a cold one. not sure why...
but a tvhead can dream cant he?

 

[Ky204]

I'm aware of everything I probably won't experience but I don't really care. I find it pointless to dwell on, I think it would just cause more pain in the end

 

[demuic]

I don't want to experience anything anymore. It all leads to pain.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

*insert my usual kissless virgin complaint*

But on top of all the things I won't get to experience as a result of that (like feeling true love, having kids, or just feeling good about myself in general), since I'm going to CTB next year I doubt I'll be able to travel to certain places I've always wanted to go to like Japan or Canada. Even if I don't kill myself I'm probably never going to get to own a house either.

I'm also probably never going to win a Smash Ultimate tournament or even get my main into Elite Smash either.

 

[sadstuffie]

hmm..
someone truly actually loving me, cooking for someone, living in my own space with all my cute decorations....now that i think about it, i dont really have any goals so...

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

Being loved unconditionally

 

[Aeathelina]

Yes and it fuels my desire to end this life and hope that I get a second chance at a better one in the next.