Discussion Things that make you want to kys?

[Captive of Mind]

My dad is very "passive-aggressive". He picks and picks and picks... and then when called on his B.S. -- oh no!

I once told him the problem in our relationship was his expectations for me (what I should be and how I should live my life. And guess what? He then claimed to have "no expectations at all". He was adamant. But then, why are you complaining? If one has "no expectations", how can there be any basis for complaining/trying to manipulate?

It's so troubling. I wish people would just give me the respect I give them.

 

[sadstuffie]

all of my girlfriend's friends hating me & several other insensitive things she's put me through, abandonment, liars...I'm sure there is more ,but i cant think of any right at this moment.

 

[Disco Biscuit]

Not having friends and family/constant loneliness
Odd personality and rarely finding people I can find connection with
Stress of living with housemates
Lost opportunities and being too old to fix things/constant regret
Shame about the above
Future bleak
Don't want to be around for the fallout of Brexit

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

• waking up
• knowing no matter how fun i have during the day i'll always feel unsatisfied and empty
• the news

 

[draw a circle]

-homophobia
-everything on my twitter feed god everyday there's drama and it's so annoying but i can't bring myself to unfollow the account that shared it because that person i think also hates the drama
-seeing my best friend pining over their online crush
-my parents reminding me to do my thesis and to pray
-calling people on the phone
-living

edit:
-cockroaches. why the hell are there so many in my house. if someone knows how to get rid of them I will be grateful.

 

[StellaArtoix]

Now, do be fair! Trump HAS discovered how to "cure cancer" = just stop testing for cancer and of course... there'll be no more cancer!

The problem is we're testing too much! Obviously the testing is causing "the corona"!!

And, if the testing isn't causing it, it's gotta be a "democrat hoax".

So now we've got folks that not just "want the right" not to wear a mask... but they go out out their way trying to force other people not to wear masks. It's irredeemable & yeah, I definitely want this evil existence to be over.

Wow could not believe what I was seeing. Hey I was wondering, what is the impression most US citizens have of Trump? Does he have much support? As someone that doesnt live in the US, Im shocked by how he has handelled this Corona Virus. At first he said that its nothing more than a cold and now over 5 million people in the US have the virus and over 150K are dead. I just dont know how he is still standing there. The way its been reported to people outside the US is that hes not the smartest tool in the box when it comes to Politics and that the terrible state of the country regards the virus is totally all on his head. Do you think there is much truth to that?

 

[waterbottleman]

The fact that I'm an outsider no matter where I go. Even on here, a suicide forum, I see other users crack inside jokes with one another, make friends with other users. Often when a user makes their own ctb goodbye thread, they almost always were close and on regular PMing communication with other users who chime in on how well they knew the OP.. People even on here exchange social medias.

I can't even explain it, I don't understand it, but I'm like incapable of connecting with people. It's like I'm subhuman or something and other people can just detect it on an intuitive level.

There's this whole aspect of life that has been absent for my almost 3 decades of life here. I see other people connect with others so easily, make friends with other people so easily. Even self proclaimed losers/people who say they have social anxiety and a whole host of other social related problems are able to make a few friends.

I have no one, in my life. No one.
I've never had a single person ever ask for a social media of mine. Not once, irl or online.

I am truly an outcast, I don't even know how people connect to others.

I think the cold harsh reality is that I'm just a genetic dead end, "the runt" of the pack if you will, and people on an unconscious level notice it even if their conscious brain does not.

Please don't send me a PM by the way after reading this. While I appreciate the kindness, I also do not like forced friendships.

 

[Dreamless Sleep]

The fact that I'm an outsider no matter where I go. Even on here, a suicide forum, I see other users crack inside jokes with one another, make friends with other users. Often when a user makes their own ctb goodbye thread, they almost always were close and on regular PMing communication with other users who chime in on how well they knew the OP.. People even on here exchange social medias.

I can't even explain it, I don't understand it, but I'm like incapable of connecting with people. It's like I'm subhuman or something and other people can just detect it on an intuitive level.

There's this whole aspect of life that has been absent for my almost 3 decades of life here. I see other people connect with others so easily, make friends with other people so easily. Even self proclaimed losers/people who say they have social anxiety and a whole host of other social related problems are able to make a few friends.

I have no one, in my life. No one.
I've never had a single person ever ask for a social media of mine. Not once, irl or online.

I am truly an outcast, I don't even know how people connect to others.

I think the cold harsh reality is that I'm just a genetic dead end, "the runt" of the pack if you will, and people on an unconscious level notice it even if their conscious brain does not.

Please don't send me a PM by the way after reading this. While I appreciate the kindness, I also do not like forced friendships.

You are absolutely not alone in this... so please dont feel like its something you've done wrong. I've noticed the same thing.

I see people who've been here like a month that have a bunch of friends... or a wall of personal messages and I'm like wtf? I barely get likes on my posts let alone a personal conversation or friendship with anyone.

Not that I'm here looking for that, but since like you I have literally ZERO friends irl I thought maybe some place like this I would find a couple people who I might find things to talk about that I have stuff in common with.

I've decided I either have social leprosy, or this group is just like any other aspect of life where you have popular cliques and outcasts... *shrug*

 

[StuckAF]

My height

 

[Avril]

Fear of losing my SO.

 

[glitchgirl]

college rejecting me.
Not being able to fit into society due to antisocial behaviour.
being a failure
living off the government
being black
Having no future

 

[BrokenLine]

Not having friends and family/constant loneliness
Odd personality and rarely finding people I can find connection with
Stress of living with housemates
Lost opportunities and being too old to fix things/constant regret
Shame about the above
Future bleak
Don't want to be around for the fallout of Brexit

Minus the Housemates and maybe brexit, this.

 

[airboy_a380]

My past. My paaaaaast. I can't let go of it I can't make peace with it... my age and the fact that i have to start over (I'm not strong enough to start over) the fact that the probability of me dying poor is like 99.9%

We all have to start over. I was so well established in life and have zero money now. Living with my parents. Depression took everything from me. You look younger than me so you still have better chances mate.

 

[StellaArtoix]

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The fact that I'm an outsider no matter where I go. Even on here, a suicide forum, I see other users crack inside jokes with one another, make friends with other users. Often when a user makes their own ctb goodbye thread, they almost always were close and on regular PMing communication with other users who chime in on how well they knew the OP.. People even on here exchange social medias.

I can't even explain it, I don't understand it, but I'm like incapable of connecting with people. It's like I'm subhuman or something and other people can just detect it on an intuitive level.

There's this whole aspect of life that has been absent for my almost 3 decades of life here. I see other people connect with others so easily, make friends with other people so easily. Even self proclaimed losers/people who say they have social anxiety and a whole host of other social related problems are able to make a few friends.

I have no one, in my life. No one.
I've never had a single person ever ask for a social media of mine. Not once, irl or online.

I am truly an outcast, I don't even know how people connect to others.

I think the cold harsh reality is that I'm just a genetic dead end, "the runt" of the pack if you will, and people on an unconscious level notice it even if their conscious brain does not.

Please don't send me a PM by the way after reading this. While I appreciate the kindness, I also do not like forced friendships.

Your just expressing what maybe many feel but never say. I think its brave of you to put yourself out there to say what you did. When I read every word you said I feel that and more. So if your subhuman Im not sure where that would put me. To have no one is so normal for me now, but I hate every minute of it. I have no family to speak of nor do I have one friend to my name. My days exist on my own because I fear contact now.SS was actually the first place I ever joined. Ive never had any kind of social media presence at all till now and cant claim to have a single friend here either. So many people feel the way you do, so you are by no means alone in this believe me.I really think your brave for so honestly speaking your mind, not many people can do that so your teaching alot of people here something incredible.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

• Mice
• People who can think for themselves, but don't
• Corruption
• Empty vanity
• The mass media - all of it
• (Child) abusers
• My foolosh belief that I can be a part of this horrible world
• This Plandemic Bullsh*t - my last straw

 

[Wayfaerer]

Mankind's natural tendency towards corruption.

 

[checkouttime]

JEEEE-ZUS! OR JEEZY

JEEEE-ZUS!

Is this the same as JEEZY, or is that just some other bell end!

Oh and what's KYS?!?!?!?!?!!

 

[Brick In The Wall]

JEEEE-ZUS! OR JEEZY


Is this the same as JEEZY, or is that just some other bell end!

Oh and what's KYS?!?!?!?!?!!

Jeezy reminds me of the shoes hehe, KYS is Kill Yourself.

 

[checkouttime]

Now, do be fair! Trump HAS discovered how to "cure cancer" = just stop testing for cancer and of course... there'll be no more cancer!

The problem is we're testing too much! Obviously the testing is causing "the corona"!!

And, if the testing isn't causing it, it's gotta be a "democrat hoax".

So now we've got folks that not just "want the right" not to wear a mask... but they go out out their way trying to force other people not to wear masks. It's irredeemable & yeah, I definitely want this evil existence to be over.

OMFG what a fuking NOB that guy in the video is. 'Come outside and i'll rip that mask off' he says, all this while being pushed away (putting little effort into being stopped' what a gimp. I could of suggested a mask to fit him nicely if i was i n that shop!!!!!!

Jeezy reminds me of the shoes hehe, KYS is Kill Yourself.

yeah thats what i mean jeezy,fukin kanye whatever the cock calls himself nowadays!!! jeeeeeeeeeezzzzuuuuusssssss

 

[BitterlyAlive]

OMG thanks for the laugh. Was not expecting that.

For me, it's a lot of things...
• homelessness
• rape, sex trafficking, abuse
• drug cartels
• people suffering in places like North Korea and China
• animal abuse
• living in America
• the idea of my loved ones and myself growing old, ill, fragile
• hopelessness
• lifelong depression and anxiety, CPTSD
• I'm pathetic and horrible
• my dental issues

There's more but this is long enough. I wish I could think of funny reasons...maybe later.

 

[TotallyIsolated]

• Brexit, the last election, Trump, COVID-19, etc...
• Seeing how fit my friends are while I'm a fat, worthless, inadequate pile of shit who will never look like they do and never even be able to run for 30 seconds
• Not being invited to hang out with my friends when they knew I was free
• Watching how my mum and dad avoid talking to me and being too absorbed with their own lives to care about me
• Seeing couples together (which at my age is basically all my friends, relatives, coworkers) and being reminded of how crushingly lonely I am and how noone will ever want me
• Rememebering cringy stuff I've done

 

[checkouttime]

The fact that I'm an outsider no matter where I go. Even on here, a suicide forum, I see other users crack inside jokes with one another, make friends with other users. Often when a user makes their own ctb goodbye thread, they almost always were close and on regular PMing communication with other users who chime in on how well they knew the OP.. People even on here exchange social medias.

I can't even explain it, I don't understand it, but I'm like incapable of connecting with people. It's like I'm subhuman or something and other people can just detect it on an intuitive level.

There's this whole aspect of life that has been absent for my almost 3 decades of life here. I see other people connect with others so easily, make friends with other people so easily. Even self proclaimed losers/people who say they have social anxiety and a whole host of other social related problems are able to make a few friends.

I have no one, in my life. No one.
I've never had a single person ever ask for a social media of mine. Not once, irl or online.

I am truly an outcast, I don't even know how people connect to others.

I think the cold harsh reality is that I'm just a genetic dead end, "the runt" of the pack if you will, and people on an unconscious level notice it even if their conscious brain does not.

Please don't send me a PM by the way after reading this. While I appreciate the kindness, I also do not like forced friendships.

Im glad at the end you wrote please don't PM me!!!

You don't want people asking for your social media etc, your leaving yourself vulnerable to people making fun of you/take advantage of you.

you don't have to know someone to crack a joke with someone on here. i think you can clearly work out who people are who can take jokes etc just join in!!! you don't have to have a membership im pretty sure no1 would mind whatsoever!

 

[Meditation guide]

Please don't send me a PM by the way after reading this. While I appreciate the kindness, I also do not like forced friendships.

I was going to reach out to you not so much because it's forced but just because I wanted to reach out. Me + U = two people making a connection of some type. We should be able to do that here if nowhere else right?

 

[Squiddy]

•Having bipolar, BPD, PTSD and anxiety
•Processing issues (not always being able to understand what's being said to me)
•Bad short term memory
•Inability to articulate myself verbally sometimes
•Attention span issues

 

[StellaArtoix]

The fact that I'm an outsider no matter where I go. Even on here, a suicide forum, I see other users crack inside jokes with one another, make friends with other users. Often when a user makes their own ctb goodbye thread, they almost always were close and on regular PMing communication with other users who chime in on how well they knew the OP.. People even on here exchange social medias.

I can't even explain it, I don't understand it, but I'm like incapable of connecting with people. It's like I'm subhuman or something and other people can just detect it on an intuitive level.

There's this whole aspect of life that has been absent for my almost 3 decades of life here. I see other people connect with others so easily, make friends with other people so easily. Even self proclaimed losers/people who say they have social anxiety and a whole host of other social related problems are able to make a few friends.

I have no one, in my life. No one.
I've never had a single person ever ask for a social media of mine. Not once, irl or online.

I am truly an outcast, I don't even know how people connect to others.

I think the cold harsh reality is that I'm just a genetic dead end, "the runt" of the pack if you will, and people on an unconscious level notice it even if their conscious brain does not.

Please don't send me a PM by the way after reading this. While I appreciate the kindness, I also do not like forced friendships.

Hey there, heres a good inside joke for you. You said you were not capable of connecting with people and didnt know how people connect to others so you must be a genetic dead end. Well Im about to prove you wrong. TODAY YOU CONNECTED WITH PEOPLE You introduced yourself, you talked a bit about who you are, telling people things about yourself and how you feel and people responded to you. Thats called connecting with people. So you do know how to do it and you managed to do it successfully. Not one person laughed at you or made fun of how your feeling.

So.......the "cold hard reality" Im afraid, is that you made a connection with not one but several people on here today. So now you have several people in your life and are no longer an outcast.

Im officially your first friend...............this is when you laugh at the inside joke we just shared

 

[KleinerWolf]

@StellaArtoix
I saw you wink at me
So here is an attempt of me winking back atcha!

 

[StellaArtoix]

Ha ha ......your bad!

Hey dont I know you? I recognise that green do. You dumped me

 

[FohPah]

The way some women talk about men makes me want to crawl into a hole and die.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

In a nutshell:

• hating myself
• constant rejection from those I've loved
• the loss of my career, reputation, religious community, home away from home, colleagues, and closest friends
• eternal shame that is wholly undeserved
• a husband who can't bring himself to trust me
• an aging mother on the verge of dementia who I'm mentally incapable of caring for

 

[KleinerWolf]

Ha ha ......your bad!

Hey dont I know you? I recognise that green do. You dumped me

What do you mean I broke up with you,
I thought you broke up with me?

You are the light of my life, fire of my loins.
We should get back together,
and I'll let you teach me the baddest wink.
Dinner at my place?