Most people are taught to think that life is something very good and that Death is really bad.
But to me there are thousands of ways of seeing how bad life really is.
for one thing every animal including a human is born a fragile , constantly hungry constantly thirsty mortal aging animal.
This to me this life this constantly hungry animal body is a huge burden , an imposition , responsibilities i didn't ask for.
i feel so stupid having to constantly eat to feed this hungry body , water constantly for thirst, then excrete it. and then go to the grocery store , oh i need to fix the car more money to get to the store, then i need to make inventory of the groceries then i need to go fight traffice and crowds and lines and push a cart to get the groceries food etc. i need to keep this stupid animal body functioninng for what reason? there is none imo. then i drive home again and have to wash dishes, cook eat, take out trash all this just to feed the hunger that i feel for food . wtf? this is just one problem of life i and every other human and every other animal has to deal with hunger , constant damn hunger for food. wtf? and this is ok with everyone? no one asks why why? and then you forget something from the damn store and again you have to spend super expensive gasoline to go get what you forgot because human memory is nothing.
then i eat and get indegestion,constipation and have to constantly excrete it and then back again to do it again every day , 3 times a day at least i have to feed this animal body
And people don't realize that actualy technology has made this easier before humans had no shoes and had to go in the cold there were no houses no supermarkets and go out in the cold and walk miles and kill another animal with sticks or stones and skin it and build fire and cook it etc all day long .
Then after doing this for decades old age decays and destroys the animal anyway and it gets old weak in pain demented. wtf and everyone is ok with this? this is wonderful life. And not to mention all the evil, lies injustice in the world which is another book.
I like every other animal has to work constantly to feed this body , give it water, keep it sheltered from the cold, keep it clean , free of ticks, free of diseases parasites , free of injury, protected from predatores etc. . People think that animals have it great . but no think of a coyote , out in the cold constantly hungry , constantly thirsty , life is constantly torturing this animal with hunger and thirst . Humans used to be like this for millions of years no different than other apes. then technology rose and now we have supermarkets , houses to keep out the cold, but life was more brutal then .but now if a human like me is not taught the right kind of knowledge how to acquire assets like a paid off house , good careeer, money management , not to waste time on garbage you can't change like TV shows, movies, sports, TV news, politics, media etc but instead to work on mitigating these problems of the weak animal body. Yes if you have a house good job and money you can buy nutritious food and have a clean house . that helps for a while until old age destroys every human.
