Venting Things I didn't consider

[Hanniewants2die]

Hi, yesterday I published my first method and the truth is I never thought it could turn out so badly for the people around me, it's not something I'm really looking for, I don't want to hurt anyone else in this process, at least not physically.
But I'm really desperate, the days go by and the university keeps demanding, I don't feel like doing absolutely anything, I need a way out of this. The thing is, now that my method has been classified as dangerous to people I don't want to hurt, could someone tell me how to do it quickly and painlessly?
I don't have anything really useful, I'm just a penniless 19-year-old girl, I can't afford a gun or drugs that would actually help. The only thing I have is 500mg Valcote, and I don't think that's really helpful. I'm pathetic because even though I want to die, I'm afraid of pain. I don't want to die drowning in unbearable pain. I know it's a stupid and I should take it for granted, but I can't.
So... If you know of a method that isn't complicated and painless, I'd appreciate the information. I've tried searching the forum, but everyone talks about something called SN, which I don't really know what it is and I don't think I can afford it either. :')

 

[Hanniewants2die]

There's plenty of methods pinned in the forum, you could try partial hanging (or full suspension if you have the room.) all you need is some sort of tight ligature, it can be a tie, rope, etc. Otherwise, wait a bit until you have some money to buy supplies for another method.

Thank you. :D

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand just wanting a way to be free from it all, I wish there's the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[Knoc]

It's very noble that you don't want to hurt anyone else with your method. It shows that you have a kind heart.



You aren't pathetic for being afraid; it's a normal human emotion that anyone would experience while facing such a heavy thing like death.



I don't want to come across as a nagging, pretentious moralist since I respect your autonomy and right to choose over your own body, but I strongly recommend trying to pivot into a different path before taking such a drastic route as suicide. Maybe academia is just not your thing.



Having said that, I don't pretend to change your mind or lecture you about your choice; I just thought I could offer a bit of a different perspective.

 

[Hanniewants2die]

It's very noble that you don't want to hurt anyone else with your method. It shows that you have a kind heart.



You aren't pathetic for being afraid; it's a normal human emotion that anyone would experience while facing such a heavy thing like death.



I don't want to come across as a nagging, pretentious moralist since I respect your autonomy and right to choose over your own body, but I strongly recommend trying to pivot into a different path before taking such a drastic route as suicide. Maybe academia is just not your thing.



Having said that, I don't pretend to change your mind or lecture you about your choice; I just thought I could offer a bit of a different perspective.

You're really sweet, thank you so much. I wish I could see it another way too, but every day feels like hell. :')
By the way, I'm sorry if my English is bad, it's not my first language.