Deathiswelcomed
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- May 21, 2026
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4th of july i ended up spilling stuff that has happened to me to my older sister who I just reconnected with recently and she told my grandma.. I told my sister about how my cousin who is 6 years older than me how he held me down and forced me to take an edible while his girlfriend and my little sister watched and didn't help me I had to take it or he wouldn't get off me. My grandma who i live with she knows now and hasn't said a word to anyone my sister told her expecting change but all that happened was that she knows now and wont help. If he finds out my cousin that I told on him he might really hurt me.. I really want to die more than ever knowing nothing will ever happen even if I do speak out about anything nothing happens ive lost my appetite im having a hard time with eating food and taking care of myself im in a state of depression and I dont know what to do anymore... im doing my best to stay alive for my boyfriend because I know he'll spiral without me. But I dont know if I can keep this up im looking for fast ways to end my life but I dont know since od and cutting arent the most efficient ive heard so im trying to see if I can find a rope instead or something like that.. if anyone has gone through similar things i feel bad for them but for me. I think I deserve the bad things that happen to me why else would they happen?
