They call it Sunday Funday

[Boots2Scoots]

Sunday funday is supposed to be relaxing. Instead it's filled with dread and depression. Waiting for my method to be ready so I can be out on this "holy" day. Feel like shit for doing it but this isn't impulsive. I've had years to contemplate and months to plan. I don't want to back out this time so I woke up and just commited to carrying out my plan. Shouldn't be much longer now. I do NOT condone taking this road but, we're all here for a reason.

Few life tips I picked up over 28 years --
1) always be honest. To everyone
2) don't give into addictions, especially if you know initially that it can/will damage you.
3) have some fun! Watch stand up comedy, learn to laugh, pick up hobbies, travel, and work hard so that you can!
4) be yourself. You'll find people who love you for you.
5) last but not least, be a good fucking person. Don't be a scumbag. Respect others and ALWAYS reflect on your actions BEFORE you make them.

Anyways... have a good life y'all! Ideally, I'll be gone shortly unless I back out again. Intentionally making it hard to back out this time though. These 15 minute spurts of happiness coupled with the ptsd that I've caused myself just aint it for me. Therapy helped minimally but that's because I can't open up about everything in therapy. Be kind to yourself, even the worst of us deserve a break every now and then. I got mad love for a lot of you on here and I just hope you can pull yourself out of this funk. Yes, life has no inherent meaning, no special higher reasoning to exist other than just to exist. It does all end one day but that doesn't mean you can't have some good times while you're waiting to go.

i'll be commenting on here until I go. Peace!

 

[deadbidaylight]

Your advice is so true, and I hope a lot of people (especially the young ones) take it and run with it. There really is so much joy to be found in life, and even in the most hopeless of situations, the momentary spurts of joy between the darkness are worth experiencing before you go (if that's what you're intent on doing). I also believe being a good person is imperative. There are sooooo many shitty people in the world. You don't need to add to that number. Maybe you'll be the person that makes someone else's life worth living that little bit more. If you're gonna leave anyway, why not be remembered as being a kind, compassionate and loving person? I'd much rather be remembered as that than "she was a huge pos and I'm glad she's gone."

Being kind to others gives us an inner sense of self worth. Lift each other up. It's been proven that being outwardly kind, helps heal our insides. It benefits so much more than others. It's worth doing.

I'm sorry that you've decided that today is the day for you to leave us, but you'll be in my heart, and I will be thinking of you as you prepare to pass. You are valued here, and won't be forgotten. I truly hope that you are able to achieve the peace you've been searching for. Life is cruel, and living is sometimes worse. I wish for a peaceful and quick journey for you. God speed

 

[amomentspeace]

Few life tips I picked up over 28 years --
1) always be honest. To everyone
2) don't give into addictions, especially if you know initially that it can/will damage you.
3) have some fun! Watch stand up comedy, learn to laugh, pick up hobbies, travel, and work hard so that you can!
4) be yourself. You'll find people who love you for you.
5) last but not least, be a good fucking person. Don't be a scumbag. Respect others and ALWAYS reflect on your actions BEFORE you make them.

Very good advice but 2) is so damn hard. I hate being a slave to my body and it's demands. I just hate my body in general. More people should follow 5) in this world.

Anyways... have a good life y'all! Ideally, I'll be gone shortly unless I back out again. Intentionally making it hard to back out this time though. These 15 minute spurts of happiness coupled with the ptsd that I've caused myself just aint it for me. Therapy helped minimally but that's because I can't open up about everything in therapy. Be kind to yourself, even the worst of us deserve a break every now and then. I got mad love for a lot of you on here and I just hope you can pull yourself out of this funk. Yes, life has no inherent meaning, no special higher reasoning to exist other than just to exist. It does all end one day but that doesn't mean you can't have some good times while you're waiting to go.

i'll be commenting on here until I go. Peace!

Wishing you the best !! I;m sorry it had to be this way for you. May you find your peace friend

 

[IDCAAEBM]

I had planned to CTB last year on my birthday, which was on a Saturday. I woke up Sunday morning completely devastated that I was still alive. This year, it lands on a Sunday. I've discovered a more successful option and I plan on succeeding. I even have a theme song for the special occasion.

 

[Boots2Scoots]

Update: I'm still here unfortunately. Set up was almost complete but amongst the people that had showed up to walk around (which already made me uneasy), a cop pulled into the parking lot I was at and just parked about 50-70ft from my car. I don't think he was there for me but because I had stuff set up on a grill without tools/anything to cook, I bailed hard because it def would've been a failure... ugghhh. I'll get it next time I suppose. My advice still stands though!!