Venting There's probably a person that has been affected by my wrongdoing [...]

[defrauder9000]

There's probably a person that has been affected by my wrongdoing and possibly is venting here about it. I know what I did is wrong. I won't say it here for privacy purposes for me and the other person, but I did something horrible to a person that noone should do. And what you're thinking of? Yeah, it's worse. I don't even know anymore. I'm a stupid terrible person fuck fuck fuck.

 

[sancta-simplicitas]

Same here. I know your pain and I hope it eases some one way or another.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Whatever it was what you did unless you destroyed their lives (objectively destroyed their lives not subjectively!) both of you can recover from that. It's pretty much human to make mistakes and we can forgive each others. Both of you don't be too hard to yourselves.

 

[defrauder9000]

not gonna lie, but I feel like I have severe guilt for what I did the other person. I don't know that to do, if I apologize to them, then I think the situation will be worse. (there's no restraining order or something like that btw, they just blocked me)

 

[dontwakemeup]

I'm sorry for how you feel, and this internal conflict that youre having. If the person blocked you, I think you should respect their privacy and their decision. I'm not bashing you but I think it's important for people to understand: You don't get to pick how the other person deals with the hurt you've caused them. I'm the type of person that will block someone and never look back. To me an apology means absolutely nothing! I don't wait or look for apologies, I always wonder why did they do this to me? Once that door is closed, I just don't ever reopen it. Perhaps you can say that's way of coping, maybe unhealthy, buy it works for me and that's how I process things.

You have to be careful how you treat people. You never know someone's back story. If that person trusted you and you did something you may think was small and easy for them to forgive you, they may view the situation differently. That person has simply taken the power of silence and decided to completely ignore you so that you can stay in limbo forever for what you did. I have no doubts that person is fine and has recovered from whatever. So, it's best to pray (if you do) ask for forgiveness and respect that person's decision to cut ties. Don't beat yourself up for the rest of your life, we are only human and will make mistakes, some may cost you forever without that person. I hope you can find some peace in all this. Wish you the best.