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JustSwingingTheD
Experienced
- Jan 31, 2022
- 204
It's so hard to do it alone. The will keeps escaping me, i've learned to detest hope because it keeps robbing me the determination. It's not really about fear, it's just that nothing seems to take away the shame from it, the feeling that you are doing something crazy, not posting here and telling everything about it nor anything else. I wish i could just sit down with someone, like a therapist, or a priest, who would listen to all my whining and say, i totally get it now, your life sucks, there is no sense in continuing. He/she would give his/her amen and let me go. I'm so sick and tired of WANTING to die!
The obvious downside would be that if this person was someone who wasn't in it completely for selfish motives, then they would have to carry that thing for the rest of their lives. "What if i had questioned his motives a little bit harder? Would he still be alive?"
The obvious downside would be that if this person was someone who wasn't in it completely for selfish motives, then they would have to carry that thing for the rest of their lives. "What if i had questioned his motives a little bit harder? Would he still be alive?"