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lonerclown666

Mage
Dec 1, 2020
540
in end the of the day is the same result dying in your sleep is not different from jumping getting shot or being tortured
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
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I think it might be at the time
 
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Mors

Mors

Member
Jul 24, 2021
28
It is true that the end result is the same but I would rather fall into a deep eternal sleep with pentobarbital than be shredded in a wood chipper. Why should a person's final moments be unnecessarily painful?
 
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Shadowplay

Shadowplay

Average life non-enjoyer
Sep 11, 2021
853
in end the of the day is the same result dying in your sleep is not different from jumping getting shot or being tortured

Nazi commandant: 'Would you rather be tortured to death on end, or simply shot in the back of the head?'
Me: 'Well I used to think that of course I'd go with being shot, but via a poorly worded Interent forum post, some guy convinced me they're both the same as you die either way so ... err dealer's choice I guess.'
 
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eryu

eryu

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Sep 25, 2021
90
In the end, yes. The result is the same for you.
But really, it's not the same because you need to deal with all the time leading up to it and go through with it.
Also, it's not really the same for your family or other people who might deal with the remains. And if you are preoccupied with this knowledge, then it can dissuade you.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,704
Yes, there is no difference at the end of the day as they both lead to non existence. I would put up with some pain in order to achieve eternal peace. However no one should have to resort to a painful ctb method that could fail. Also I believe having an peaceful method would make it easier to overcome the SI. I want to feel at peace as I exit this world. We all deserve an peaceful exit at a time of our own choosing. It is cruel how the society denies us that.
 
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Rational man

Rational man

Enlightened
Oct 19, 2021
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How many. people die naturally in their sleep?...not many. Yes, we all die eventually but few can predict how.. Ive seen people die in hospital. Some.of these deaths were gruesome. Others die in a care home, like my Father who who was stripped of his dignity. If im faced with the choice between taking my own exit or being stuck in a hospital bed surrounded by doctors who cant cure me but can keep me alive, I think I know where my pathway is.
 
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Chockles

Experienced
Sep 17, 2021
270
I've really left things too late. I am in excrutiating agony my body is burning with electrical vibrations & stabbing knife pain from head to toe for 10 solid months now bed ridden. I've now ordered N & assuming it arrives safely I'll have no choice but to CTB next week.

No pain medication helps me, I haven't slept for ages, benzos at best gIve me a couple hours sleep. I'm tapering off them. I can't breathe, ears are blocked off. All from long term exposure to toxic mold. I've been ill all my life with genetic disorders but was a fighter until lockdown i started having 24/7:seizure activity. Now all my muscles & nerves are damaged beyond repair.

I wish I could go tonight. I am still extremely scared of dying & fear of death as no specific beliefs but lots of guilt & regrets. But I know deathv can't be any worse than my barely existing torture. Yet I am petrified.

My parents can't cope, they know I want to die, they want me to now as they know how badly I'm suffering. It's either do this or get admitted to a psyche ward as nhs think it's all mental & parents love me but cannot bear seeing me like this.

I am such a coward but how long can one go on unable to breathe, eat, drink, go to the toilet. There isnt a muscle, nerve or cell in my body that isnt inflamed & im rattling all the timem It is inhumane sufferring & I have to do It at home under elderly parents roof no 24hrs in a hotel for me. I scream & cry in agony all day so I'll have 12hrs max before they hopefully find me dead. They are expecting it to happen it's me that can't seem to accept my fate. I was doing a little better 2 years ago was planning to sell my flat, buy a house with a garden get a dog with my partner & get about on my mobility scooter & wheelchair. Im as prepared as i can be now tho. Suicide letter written, will taken care of. A few accounts to close once it hopefully arrives then I'm out of here.
 
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91Days

91Days

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Oct 14, 2021
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in end the of the day is the same result dying in your sleep is not different from jumping getting shot or being tortured
Mexican cartels hate this guy
 
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Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,875
For me at least, the difference between agony and its absence is the biggest difference I can imagine.
 
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