There is no life left to live

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I feel like I've done everything there is to do and saw everything there is to see. It feels like everything I do now is just waste of time. There's no point to anything.

I'm so busy with work and I don't have time to do the things I really want to do. But when I'm not working, I don't have the MONEY to do things I really want to do. I don't want to die, but I don't want to keep working and being bored and being sad. I spend all day at work waiting until I get off, and then I spend all my free time dreading work in the morning.

I don't want to die, but I don't want to "live" anymore. I wish there was another way. I wish I could just be happy. The only way for me to find peace is to traumatize my family and permanently scar the people who care about me. It all makes me so sad.

 

[jazzcat621]

Gosh me too. Like is this all there is to life? I went and completed every childhood goal and dream that's possible and now I just come home from work and sleep until the next day (and I guess post here :p). I wouldn't even call this living, this is just waiting for death.