There are no second chances in life

[wasteofspace22]

Once a choice is made, it's made. I can't take back a lot of the shit I did even tho I dream of a reality where i never did it. I became a freak and a joke of a human. I got one life, one life. And this is my life. I can't carry on like this I feel like, I am on my 19, but I know it's a wrap for me. I'll be honest- I don't want to CTB, I just wanted things to get better, but once ive been low for so long I know the reality of the situation.

 

[Fktw0rld]

Damn. Reading your post saddens me. 19 years old is tough. I'm 43 and would go as far to say there are second chances in life, I've had quite a few actually. But there is no ability to turn back time and correct a wrong or a life altering decision. Some things can get better with enough willpower and determination (which most of us are depleted of). Some things will remain a black cloud over and in our heads for life. I don't know your life situation or what has gotten you to this point at 19 years old. But I respect and relate to your mindset. Whatever road you choose, whether life or death, I hope you find peace in your decision and strategy.

Love and respect my friend

 

[summers]

This is one of my fav quotes ever, because it's just so true.

"Life's simple , you make choices and you don't look back."

 

[Lifeaballache]

Once a choice is made, it's made. I can't take back a lot of the shit I did even tho I dream of a reality where i never did it. I became a freak and a joke of a human. I got one life, one life. And this is my life. I can't carry on like this I feel like, I am on my 19, but I know it's a wrap for me. I'll be honest- I don't want to CTB, I just wanted things to get better, but once ive been low for so long I know the reality of the situation.

I so agree. I don't particularly want to die but I feel like I have been left with no choice.

 

[FuneralCry]

I agree that there are no second chances as we cannot go back in time and change things. We have to deal with the consequences of our actions and I know that for many dealing with regret can be painful. I think that as time goes on, and humans get older the problems increase and cause us to suffer more. This is part of why I want to leave, the thought of enduring this life until old age is so horrifying.

 

[summers]

I think that as time goes on, and humans get older the problems increase and cause us to suffer more.

I agree. And it seems like small mistakes years ago compound into huge consequences down the line.

While there are no takebacks, no redos, the faster you can right the path, the less impact things have.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

There are definitely second chances depending on circumstances… If you have the financial resources and you're physically healthy there's lots of possibilities… If you're young, you can hit the reset button by going back to school or moving cities or switching careers - Things get more difficult as you get older and if you're fearful and traumatized… nothing seems possible…

 

[jodes2]

If you're 19, I honestly think there are second chances, there were for me. But I respect your decision to CTB, I hope you find peace

 

[wasteofspace22]

If you're 19, I honestly think there are second chances, there were for me. But I respect your decision to CTB, I hope you find peace

I haven't made up that decision yet, but I see no future for me with my mental circumstances. I have no plan of action that seems reasonable either

 

[jodes2]

I haven't made up that decision yet, but I see no future for me with my mental circumstances. I have no plan of action that seems reasonable either

Sorry to hear that, mind if I ask what your mental circumstances are?

 

[Darkover]

if life starts off shit the likelihood is it stay shit for the remaining best to leave sooner than later

 

[wasteofspace22]

if life starts off shit the likelihood is it stay shit for the remaining best to leave sooner than later

Fuck my life

Sorry to hear that, mind if I ask what your mental circumstances are?

ill pm you later today

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

Once a choice is made, it's made. I can't take back a lot of the shit I did even tho I dream of a reality where i never did it. I became a freak and a joke of a human. I got one life, one life. And this is my life. I can't carry on like this I feel like, I am on my 19, but I know it's a wrap for me. I'll be honest- I don't want to CTB, I just wanted things to get better, but once ive been low for so long I know the reality of the situation.

I can relate. But having said that, I don't wanna come off as a pro-lifer... nor do I wanna sound like I'm encouraging ctb, but... I'd say keep struggling, and not just that, make ctb your backup plan. Considering how difficult it I'd to die, you might find that light at the end of the tunnel and you'll begin to rebuild yourself.

Even when it's unbearably tough, try not to throw in the towel. Just keep working on crafting and perfecting your method. That should be the only thing on your mind. In time you'll realize your own strengths, and weaknesses which will be turned into your strengths, and you'll have what it takes to make that dream a reality.

This could also be dangerous and you might fail, but... yeah... there are no right or wrong answers.

 

[wasteofspace22]

I can relate. But having said that, I don't wanna come off as a pro-lifer... nor do I wanna sound like I'm encouraging ctb, but... I'd say keep struggling, and not just that, make ctb your backup plan. Considering how difficult it I'd to die, you might find that light at the end of the tunnel and you'll begin to rebuild yourself.

Even when it's unbearably tough, try not to throw in the towel. Just keep working on crafting and perfecting your method. That should be the only thing on your mind. In time you'll realize your own strengths, and weaknesses which will be turned into your strengths, and you'll have what it takes to make that dream a reality.

This could also be dangerous and you might fail, but... yeah... there are no right or wrong answers.

Thus gives me the tiniest bit of hope thank you

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

Thus gives me the tiniest bit of hope thank you

Sure thing! I'm going on a bit of a journey myself. And I'm at the point I'm simply too suicidal to want to die.

 

[wasteofspace22]

Sure thing! I'm going on a bit of a journey myself. And I'm at the point I'm simply too suicidal to want to die.

Too suicidal to want to die? Hmmmm

 

[4hrs50min]

I had second chances 3 times between 25-30. I wish I could fight again for my future like I did a year ago before f-ing up again but it seems impossible. I wish I didn't feel/ see it as this but I can't help it. Hope you will get relief from your troubles.

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

Too suicidal to want to die? Hmmmm

It's a bit complicated to explain in a way that'd make sense without it becoming an essay (better to demonstrate), but think of it as a transformation of which the pain you'll endure will be replaced by an unshakable resolve, neither to die or live, but to win, regardless of the outcome.

M

 

[Lifeaballache]

I'd like to add that I've had a second chance in life but now I've gone and completely fucked it up. Life is cruel but see if there is some way of salvaging your life first.

 

[Degen]

I definitely relate though I'm a bit older at 22. At your age there's still second chances, technically I also have a second chance however I know I'm too mentally messed up to not fuck it up. No point in going on when you know you are doomed to fail.
Plus, potential second chances suck since the pressure to succeed and "get it right this time" is unbearable.