All the therapists I've talked to never view suicide as an option. They act like it simply can never happen. So there's no point talking about my problems because they offer solutions with the assumption that life is inherently valuable and that I have to stay alive no matter what. Whenever I say I can't do something, they say yes you can. And I say no I will kill myself if I try to. And they just say no you can't because staying alive is the most important thing.
What a waste of time. I'm trying to decide if I should continue going.
From a POV of therapist there are 2 cases, your lying or not. They wont risk getting "blackmailed" by you. For that reason the most clever is assume you are lying. However to be honest, there is almost impossible to therapist empathize with you. Because is really exhausting for a therapist empatize with all their consultants. If a therapist emapthize with you consider a lucky strike. Being honest, they dont have to emaptyhize with you. Their simple need your money and attaching to a professional script and requieremtns. They are required to "care" about your suiciding because is what sociaty push them, maybe in their personal thoughts they could agree suiciding is valid. However their profession by definition must always contradict that. The thruth is they are not affected for the killing of their consultant (but only losing a short income for your sessions).
Consider this: only a few decades ago, society classified being trans as a mental illness. That example shows how therapy is less about "helping" people and more about mastering a culturally approved framework of what counts as mental wellness. In my view, the concept of "mental health" is bullshit (at least regarding on suicidal)—it's really about getting society to accept you, not about any objective measure of health. That's why I see suicide as a fundamentally political issue: it's judged "wrong" not on medical grounds, but because it violates prevailing norms of what is politically acceptable.
