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voirpoet.

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for a long time i desperately wanted to beat my battle with depression and get back on track, but now i feel like it's pointless. talking to a stranger who parrots back what you say in an empathetic tone and taking drugs that hijacks your brains emotions so you don't feel anything anymore doesn't fix what's causing the issue. normal people don't even need this shit to live.

long term mental suffering should be good enough reason to be voluntarily euthanized.
 
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Apr 12, 2026
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It helps a lot of people. There is lots of meds to try and different types of therapy.

They don't help me either tho. I relate a lot. It's would be nice to be euthanized after trying for so long. It's frustrating.

It's crazy to me some people never seriously think of ctb. And some people go to therapy a few weeks/months and are happy again. I wish
 
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un.exist

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Yeah. For me, the meds didn't change anything. My life was collapsing around me and some pills were to make me smile through it? The only thing I felt were the side effects when I abruptly stopped taking the pills (bad idea).
 
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Jan 26, 2026
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Yeah. For me, the meds didn't change anything. My life was collapsing around me and some pills were to make me smile through it? The only thing I felt were the side effects when I abruptly stopped taking the pills (bad idea)
The side effects of the pills are the worse shit they dont help me feel better mentally but an antipsychotic i take at night caused me insomnia i cant sleep without it now aripiprazole i have to take this too and that shit makes me sick for like 3 days everytime i run out and have to cut the treatment for a few days shit makes me puke and makes me feel like i got fever flouxetine aint bad. If i knew all of this i would've never taken the meds
 
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LilGhost

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Apr 8, 2026
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for a long time i desperately wanted to beat my battle with depression and get back on track, but now i feel like it's pointless. talking to a stranger who parrots back what you say in an empathetic tone and taking drugs that hijacks your brains emotions so you don't feel anything anymore doesn't fix what's causing the issue. normal people don't even need this shit to live.

long term mental suffering should be good enough reason to be voluntarily euthanized.
100% true for me. You can try taking pills that dont numb, but give happy chemicals (like Wellbutrin). Other then that never met a single normal therapist. They are always saying smth like "that must have been hard for you:aw:", like stfu, you dont know me and they often miss the point. One therapist even suggested posititive affirmations which were scientifically proven to be more harmful then helpful, buddy didnt know how to their own job right.
I know there is also electro therapy or smth like that? I dont rlly know cause i never tried but it did sound like something that could actually help. And actually mental health is a reason in some countries to get euthanasia. I attached the table of eligibility for euthanasia in different countries. I think it was correct in 2025, but smth might have changed (like i think there could be a bill in Canada passing legalizing euthanasia due to mental health suffering only)
 

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100% true for me. You can try taking pills that dont numb, but give happy chemicals (like Wellbutrin). Other then that never met a single normal therapist. They are always saying smth like "that must have been hard for you:aw:", like stfu, you dont know me and they often miss the point. One therapist even suggested posititive affirmations which were scientifically proven to be more harmful then helpful, buddy didnt know how to their own job right.
I know there is also electro therapy or smth like that? I dont rlly know cause i never tried but it did sound like something that could actually help. And actually mental health is a reason in some countries to get euthanasia. I attached the table of eligibility for euthanasia in different countries. I think it was correct in 2025, but smth might have changed (like i think there could be a bill in Canada passing legalizing euthanasia due to mental health suffering only)
ah yes, the positive affirmations... because telling myself "i am worthy" 500 times is going to magically fix my trauma and life circumstances. i'm jealous of people who are able to improve with therapy but i think i'm in too deep atp. unfortunately i live in the US so voluntary euthanasia isn't an option but canada is based as hell for it. i think electro therapy would be my only hope but i don't know how i'd get it without going through even more money hungry therapists and psychiatrists :(
 
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normal people don't even need this shit to live.
yeah i know we shouldnt compare ourselves to other people but i feel like in this literal life or death instance its understandable. i probably desperately "need" therapy and medication but i hate remembering that and it turns me off from it. normal people just dont need any of it. it does make me more suicidal knowing i cant even be normal enough to want to live like a regular person. id rather die than force myself to live on medicine. i would feel like less of a human. i support other people if they go that way but i never wanted to do it.
 
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LilGhost

LilGhost

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Apr 8, 2026
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ah yes, the positive affirmations... because telling myself "i am worthy" 500 times is going to magically fix my trauma and life circumstances. i'm jealous of people who are able to improve with therapy but i think i'm in too deep atp. unfortunately i live in the US so voluntary euthanasia isn't an option but canada is based as hell for it. i think electro therapy would be my only hope but i don't know how i'd get it without going through even more money hungry therapists and psychiatrists :(
There is actually a way: clinical trials. Its a gamble with them, but they are usually free and some even pay you money for participation. Can advise you to check ClinicalTrials.gov website. You can put their your diagnosis (and treatment, but its optional, you can research treatments there) as well as your postal code so it is easier to find nearest trial. I have in my plans to try one myself, but I didnt get answer from any of those i applied for yet, I assume some of them might end up ghosting you so its better to apply for more then one. My motto : if you feel like sh it, gamble with chance to improve it. Worse case scenario, you already feel shitty enough to not get any differences.
If you are ready to spend some money on electro therapy tho, going to your family doctor requesting referral for that treatment would be your first step (thats how I assume it would work in Canada, ig USA supposed to be simmiliar to it)
 

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