Venting Therapist isn't helping

[theonethatsleeps]

I recently started therapy. I have only been there for a couple of times but I already dislike it.
Talking about my problems feels all wrong. I usually don't talk or vent about anything that's going on in my head, so it feels like she is ripping me apart. I just know that she doesn't understand me at all. One day we are talking about how I show symptoms of social anxiety, the other day that topic is completely gone and she starts nagging about my eating conditions. I know I have problems, but she has to be exaggerating. I had to tell her my weight and after she calculated my BMI, she told me I'm really underweight. I'm close to a BMI of 15 and she told me that anyone with a BMI below 15 needs to get medical treatment in a clinic. I know I am skinny and have my problems, but that was the first time someone actually talked about it with me and it did not feel good at all. My therapist just kept on asking me if I control which food I consume and she just won't believe me. I suspect to have ARFID, not anorexia. But no matter how hard I try, I just can not get myself to open up about anything that matters really. Then, out of the blue, she asked me why I self-harm, which completely threw me off. I told her I didn't want to talk about it and she was fine with that, but all of these things just make me extremely uncomfortable. I never talk about anything with anyone and whenever my parents ask me about it, I just stay completely silent, because my mind won't cooperate. It feels like I constantly need to get worse, so that I can have something people will be shocked to learn about me. I thought I could one day burst out the secrets I've been holding in for so long, but everyday I get reminded that telling anyone about what is going on inside my head just fills me with fear and disgust. It took courage writing this. Does it make any sense?

 

[Z0002]

Yeah, I talked to many therapist and none of them helped, they are just talking shit from books they red in school, we can try to talk if you want but I doubt I can help... Anyways I hope you'll find happines in this fucked up world

 

[Worndown]

My son has a therapist.
The first few were just like this.
Then he figured out he needed to embrace it and work with it.
You need to be ready to work it and need the right therapist.
You need a good "dance" partner for success.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

it helps.
it helps the therapist's wallet.

i'm not a fan of it neither, whatsoever.
leaving from the office with lukewarm bullshit advice and minus 100 bucks on my account. YAY!

 

[needtofindrightway]

I started seeing a therapist this month and had three sessions so far. He's miles better than my first therapist that I've seen from 2020 to 2023. So the right therapist does make a difference.

I'm doubtful if he can help me but I'm willing to give it a shot. Maybe your therapist isn't right for you. You should be able to control the topics you want to talk about.

But it's normal to feel drained and worse after the sessions. It's hard work.

 

[Kilvan]

it helps.
it helps the therapist's wallet.

i'm not a fan of it neither, whatsoever.
leaving from the office with lukewarm bullshit advice and minus 100 bucks on my account. YAY!

i agree , I have to pay my therapist 80 bucks every time I see her, and I see her 3 times a week. That's insane; it makes me dislike every time I have to go talk to her. My parents pay for it, not me, but it still makes me feel guilty af

 

[theonethatsleeps]

i agree , I have to pay my therapist 80 bucks every time I see her, and I see her 3 times a week. That's insane; it makes me dislike every time I have to go talk to her. My parents pay for it, not me, but it still makes me feel guilty af

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