leiche
i need a cigarette
- Aug 19, 2020
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1. as you may know, military service is obedient for men in russia, and we all must check our health once a year. since i gave up educating, i hoped that some of my diseases would be enough to admit i can't go to military, but it's all went wrong. when i told doctor i have suicidal thoughts and cried right in front or her, first she was respectful, but as she saw i didn't get better, she just went freaking mad:
- ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID OR WHAT? YOU'RE SO YOUNG AND SELFISH, WHAT WILL YOUR MOTHER DO, BRAT? YOU'RE FUCKING IDIOT
i still don't know how i had enough strength not to fucking rage quit, to be honest
2. when my best friend did ctb, i was in a deep depression, wandering around the city listening to music. than some random dude came over (he knew her, i guess) and told me this:
-why didn't you stop her?
i told honestly i didn't even know about her plans. later i was told she even tried it long ago, but didn't tell me
-what? is that some kind of excuse, or what?
dude, who the fuck are you even to judge me? you don't know shit! don't you see i can't even talk normally? that was my thoughts, of course i just didn't answer. i also saw some random dudes at funeral pretending they were in grief. that was such a pathetic spectacle to be honest :)
3. when my dad was drunk he just told me 'fuck you'. and then he started beating my mom maniacally. i guess that day was the point of no return. also my mum being drunk too said
-does he have a girlfriend?
-what? nobody needs such a guy
i knew it's true, but i couldn't help crying
that's it. share your stories here, if you want
- ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID OR WHAT? YOU'RE SO YOUNG AND SELFISH, WHAT WILL YOUR MOTHER DO, BRAT? YOU'RE FUCKING IDIOT
i still don't know how i had enough strength not to fucking rage quit, to be honest
2. when my best friend did ctb, i was in a deep depression, wandering around the city listening to music. than some random dude came over (he knew her, i guess) and told me this:
-why didn't you stop her?
i told honestly i didn't even know about her plans. later i was told she even tried it long ago, but didn't tell me
-what? is that some kind of excuse, or what?
dude, who the fuck are you even to judge me? you don't know shit! don't you see i can't even talk normally? that was my thoughts, of course i just didn't answer. i also saw some random dudes at funeral pretending they were in grief. that was such a pathetic spectacle to be honest :)
3. when my dad was drunk he just told me 'fuck you'. and then he started beating my mom maniacally. i guess that day was the point of no return. also my mum being drunk too said
-does he have a girlfriend?
-what? nobody needs such a guy
i knew it's true, but i couldn't help crying
that's it. share your stories here, if you want