The world doesn’t want me here

[tapetum_lucidum]

When I was born, I came out of the womb with the umbilical cord around my neck. Unfortunately, I survived. I just find it funny how the world tried getting rid of me the second I came into it. I almost got hit by a car as a kid, it wasn't going very fast but it's nice to imagine what could have been. Once I took shrooms and ended up thinking I was dead, and that was the only time it felt okay for me to exist. The world doesn't want me. It feels like my fate is inevitable

 

[barelyholdingon]

I'm sorry you've gone through those things. I hope you can find some modicum of peace and happiness

 

[tapetum_lucidum]

I'm sorry you've gone through those things. I hope you can find some modicum of peace and happiness

Thank you. Sadly the only happiness I feel is fleeting moments. I'm miserable 98% of the time. Meds don't work. Therapy doesn't work. I just don't want to be here.

 

[barelyholdingon]

Thank you. Sadly the only happiness I feel is fleeting moments. I'm miserable 98% of the time. Meds don't work. Therapy doesn't work. I just don't want to be here

I hear you. I'm approaching my twentieth different medicine. I keep trying to find one that will change my life but I fear it doesn't exist. And therapy is a laughable joke. My plan is to live a simple life of solitude and save as much money as I can to leave behind for my family. I want to be dead by 30 though

 

[tapetum_lucidum]

I hear you. I'm approaching my twentieth different medicine. I keep trying to find one that will change my life but I fear it doesn't exist. And therapy is a laughable joke. My plan is to live a simple life of solitude and save as much money as I can to leave behind for my family. I want to be dead by 30 though

I only want to stay here until my cat dies. I can't leave her alone. I wish you the best of luck, friend

 

[barelyholdingon]

I only want to stay here until my cat dies. I can't leave her alone. I wish you the best of luck, friend

I'm glad you have your cat, sometimes it's the simple things that keep us going in this cruel world. Wishing you the best also