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Kramer

Kramer

Nervous wreck
Oct 27, 2020
1,398
is to focus on what benefits you feel death offers.

For me: no people while ironically craving their company, eternal quiet, no more constant anxiety
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,183
So true!
However, SI and fear are a couple of bitches that don't allow me to get on that bus. (yet)
 
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Gromit-CTB

Gromit-CTB

time for ctb
Nov 14, 2020
847
No pain, no suffering, no hurt, no nothing
 
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Kramer

Kramer

Nervous wreck
Oct 27, 2020
1,398
No pain, no suffering, no hurt, no nothing
I tend to focus on specifics. No nothing covers everything but is too abstract to offer any comfort
 
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Gromit-CTB

Gromit-CTB

time for ctb
Nov 14, 2020
847
I tend to focus on specifics. No nothing covers everything but is too abstract to offer any comfort
It's the way I overcome my SI. Not for everyone but works for me if I list in that order
 
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stygal

stygal

meow
Oct 29, 2020
1,729
I don't have to be a perfectionist anymore
I won't need to earn money any longer
my legs won't hurt any longer
I won't feel like an alien amongst humans any longer
 
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StateOfMind

StateOfMind

Liberty or Death
Apr 30, 2020
1,195
Do you regret not ctb when you had the chance?
Then you now its time.
 
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virginiawoolf86

virginiawoolf86

Specialist
Jul 4, 2020
316
I won't have to feel like I'm housing a rotten corpse anymore. I can rest.
 
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Deleted member 17949

Visionary
May 9, 2020
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Personally I found familiarizing myself with the environment has helped. Getting hit by a train is scary no matter how much I think about the benefits, but by standing on the tracks, being near them, watching trains pass and thinking about getting hit I have found the mental barrier is getting way easier to cope with. It's not particularly scary now compared to what it was before.
 
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Throwmyselfaway

Throwmyselfaway

Not gone yet but soon
Jan 14, 2020
797
I will be chanting the litany against fear when it's time. It kinda works for everything and it's a good calming thing for me and I hope it helps with SI.
 
Throwmyselfaway

Throwmyselfaway

Not gone yet but soon
Jan 14, 2020
797
What's that?
It's a prayer/poem from the sci fi novel Dune
"I must not fear.Fear is the mind-killer.Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.I will face my fear.I will permit it to pass over me and through me.And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
 
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Kramer

Nervous wreck
Oct 27, 2020
1,398
It's a prayer/poem from the sci fi novel Dune
"I must not fear.Fear is the mind-killer.Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.I will face my fear.I will permit it to pass over me and through me.And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
I tried to read that book but stopped when they were traveling in the desert. I hate the desert as a landscape and hearing them talk about how thirsty they were and how they were running out of water was hard to stomach.
 
Nimbus

Nimbus

Hanging on is hard
Dec 2, 2019
211
For me, the unselfish benefit that death offers is no longer being a burden to those who love me. They don't deserve that. The hard part is the interim pain my death will cause them; that's what has stopped me. But they will heal and be able to move on with their lives. So I have to get past the irrational fear I have of hurting them and try to focus on the long-term benefits to them. It's just really, really hard to do.
 
Kramer

Kramer

Nervous wreck
Oct 27, 2020
1,398
For me, the unselfish benefit that death offers is no longer being a burden to those who love me. They don't deserve that. The hard part is the interim pain my death will cause them; that's what has stopped me. But they will heal and be able to move on with their lives. So I have to get past the irrational fear I have of hurting them and try to focus on the long-term benefits to them. It's just really, really hard to do.
Your pain is more important.
 
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Death22

Death22

If I can stop 1 breeder, I’m happy
Nov 25, 2020
45
Your constant anxiety is because you keep repeating old familiar comfortable patterns

It's your body's way of screaming for change
 
Kramer

Kramer

Nervous wreck
Oct 27, 2020
1,398
Your constant anxiety is because you keep repeating old familiar comfortable patterns

It's your body's way of screaming for change
I have ptsd which is literally brain damage. That's the source of my anxiety
 
Death22

Death22

If I can stop 1 breeder, I’m happy
Nov 25, 2020
45
I have ptsd which is literally brain damage. That's the source of my anxiety
Right. Some people are unable to change their pattern because of literal brain damage. Of coarse.

Yeah, in a way it's the origin of your anxiety.
But the anxiety itself is what I described above.
 
Kramer

Kramer

Nervous wreck
Oct 27, 2020
1,398
I can see there is substantial damage. I'm sorry for that.
Good luck with life.
You're not too bright. Actually saying, "Good luck with life" on a suicide forum lol What a world.
 
Death22

Death22

If I can stop 1 breeder, I’m happy
Nov 25, 2020
45
You're not too bright. Actually saying, "Good luck with life" on a suicide forum lol What a world.
Sometimes it's hard to interpret sarcasm in text.
Maybe I was wrong but it looked like sarcasm from your view.

My bad and I'm sorry if I interpreted that wrong.
 
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Elementalist
Nov 11, 2020
885
Each person has their own way to overcome it. Some people don't even have to overcome it. It's interesting.
 
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