The wave has passed but I still want to die. What should I do?

[exitplease]

I am 100% committed to ctb and have been so for a while.

Recently the wave came over me again (if you know what I'm referring to) - the suicidal wave, where you have the energy, motivation, strength and courage to kill yourself.

But it has passed. I have no energy anymore. I'm exhausted. And weak.

I still want to die as much as I ever have, but I'm not sure if I should wait until the wave overcomes me again, or just to do it when I'm quiet and tired and emotionless.

What should I do? Should I wait, or just do it when I have the means (which has been a hell of a wait to source).

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Only you can know when the time has come for you and when you're ready to leave this world. I can relate to this in some ways. What's your method if I may ask that.

 

[tiredcat]

i'd say, if you are truly committed, decide whether you would like to do it in a more "calm" state (i say calm because you may not feel as overwhelmed with emotion while in the process) or in a state where you are ready and fully emotionally aware of what you are doing.

whichever seems or feels more right to you. whatever decision you make either way, i hope it brings you peace.

much love <3

 

[exitplease]

Only you can know when the time has come for you and when you're ready to leave this world. I can relate to this in some ways. What's your method if I may ask that.

I'll let you know if it arrives ;)

i'd say, if you are truly committed, decide whether you would like to do it in a more "calm" state (i say calm because you may not feel as overwhelmed with emotion while in the process) or in a state where you are ready and fully emotionally aware of what you are doing.

whichever seems or feels more right to you. whatever decision you make either way, i hope it brings you peace.

much love <3

You're right, I need to decide between doing it whilst in a calm state or a fully emotionally charged state.

Thank you

 

[Big Cat]

I am 100% committed to ctb and have been so for a while.

Recently the wave came over me again (if you know what I'm referring to) - the suicidal wave, where you have the energy, motivation, strength and courage to kill yourself.

But it has passed. I have no energy anymore. I'm exhausted. And weak.

I still want to die as much as I ever have, but I'm not sure if I should wait until the wave overcomes me again, or just to do it when I'm quiet and tired and emotionless.

What should I do? Should I wait, or just do it when I have the means (which has been a hell of a wait to source).

I know how you feel. I have lost the wave but want to ctb. How do you get it back?