the wait for a clinical psychologist feels miserably long

[ScaredCutter]

my mum wont be able to hear back from the psychologist or the person who has to relay information to said psychologist because they are on holiday. ive been feeling great though but im worried about how close the holidays are endinh and thay im going to tafe. i still cant communicatw to others, ive mostly spent my time inside the house and honwstly, i jusy dont feel ready at all.

ive just been waiting for that because its the obly truw first step for me.

what should i do to idk, better parts of myself before the time comes? i did write some things in a book id have them read if theres confirmation of me being able to see them. should i just do that?

the things im writing about is more related to my emotions and reaction to things, how i perceieve things and what it makes me feel. erm im really bad at writing it down though lol.

 

[suacide]

I think what you suggested sounds like a pretty good idea to me, but also i have some advice from someone who has waited to see a clinical psych and honestly wasted the opportunity.
I know it's not an easy ask, but be extremely honest. Every thought and action no matter how dark.
The only thing to it is you need to tell them that you have no plans to act on taking your life, even if you do. That's how you get put in the ward. You can talk about how much you want it. You can talk about how you've been suicidal for years. You can talk about basically everything except actually having plans and intending to go through with them. Outside of that one stipulation, talk about everything no matter how humiliating. Write it down in advanced if you're the kind of person that finds it hard to talk about in the moment.
When I had mine, I was uninformed, young and scared so I ended up completely denying a lot of really important things. Make sure not to make that mistake, and I really do only wish the best for you.