The voices started telling me to do stuff tonight

[1001YellowDaffodils]

I've been hearing things for months (seeing things for longer) mainly fast whispering, but increasingly a lot of "hey" or "over here", tonight I heard "kill yourself" whispered repeatedly next to my ear, or maybe in my head, but like over to the left by my ear? It's hard to tell sometimes if these voices and sounds are being imagined in or out of my head when I know it's all coming from my head, does that make sense? I hear noises and whispers coming from across the room and inside walls and jumping back and forth around me, but then sometimes they sound so close, but impossibly close. I don't know. The more it happens the more I try to get used to it but it always gives me anxiety and I usually just end up looking around the room because it sounds so clear I expect to see someone.

 

[waitingforrest]

I hear voices sometimes when I am very stressed or near an episode. I don't like to tell people to go seek professional help as the first choice, but do consider it if you are losing a grip on reality. Voices, along with delusions often come hand in hand. Mostly this makes me think everyone, including professionals are trying to kill me, so get it if you are wary. I sadly don't have much experiences in quieting them other than sleeping.

 

[1001YellowDaffodils]

I hear voices sometimes when I am very stressed or near an episode. I don't like to tell people to go seek professional help as the first choice, but do consider it if you are losing a grip on reality. Voices, along with delusions often come hand in hand. Mostly this makes me think everyone, including professionals are trying to kill me, so get it if you are wary. I sadly don't have much experiences in quieting them other than sleeping.

I have had delusions I think, about the world being a simulation, everything around being fake, or my memories not being real. Really bad episodes, but I can hear things without being in that state too. I don't think anything can help me, and I plan on killing myself at the end of this month. Thanks for your reply!

 

[waitingforrest]

I have had delusions I think, about the world being a simulation, everything around being fake, or my memories not being real. Really bad episodes, but I can hear things without being in that state too. I don't think anything can help me, and I plan on killing myself at the end of this month. Thanks for your reply!

Do take your time and plan it out if you are going to cbt. I know the voices will make it hard, but I don't want you to suffer more or be kept alive against your will. Research will be hard with the new rules in place, but I hope you are able to find the info you need when you decide it's time.

 

[1001YellowDaffodils]

Do take your time and plan it out if you are going to cbt. I know the voices will make it hard, but I don't want you to suffer more or be kept alive against your will. Research will be hard with the new rules in place, but I hope you are able to find the info you need when you decide it's time.

Thank you, and I do have it all planned out, for a while now, just waiting for the holidays to be over.

 

[Depressed Cat]

I hope you think it out very carefully, ignoring the voices in your head. For the same voices could tell you "Don't do it!", when you're about to attempt CTB. You never know.

If you've decided to CTB, then plan out everything to the last detail. You don't want something to go wrong with the method or for someone to find you in the process of doing so.

I'm sorry to hear of your suffering and it's sad that it has come to this, but I wish you the best.

Take care. I hope you find peace.

 

[Heartattackpending]

I'm sorry for your suffering but your so-called delusions are not wrong. I've come to the conclusion that the universe is indeed a simulation. The scientists have found all sorts of clues including the Heisenberg Principle which says that the simple act of observing
changes things which is just what you would expect from a computer program or video game. To conserve energy, when not being observed, the program gets fuzzy and lazy. No need to get to specific. As soon as you focus your attention on it, it fleshes out gets more detailed. As understand it, wave when not observed, particle when it is observed. Again, as I understand it,Quantum Mechanics makes much more sense in a simulated world than a so-called real world. The constraints of the speed of light gives the computer time to adjust to contingencies, adjust the simulation so that it runs smoothly and fools us. I'm no scientist but I'm convinced. There's also the Plank Constant constraints that suggest the Universe is constructed on a kind of grid. Again, like something artificial, programmed. I'm getting a little out of my depth here but I imagine there are smart people here on this site who can explain better than I. Anyway, sorry if I highjacked your thread. I wish you the best.

 

[1001YellowDaffodils]

I hope you think it out very carefully, ignoring the voices in your head. For the same voices could tell you "Don't do it!", when you're about to attempt CTB. You never know.

If you've decided to CTB, then plan out everything to the last detail. You don't want something to go wrong with the method or for someone to find you in the process of doing so.

I'm sorry to hear of your suffering and it's sad that it has come to this, but I wish you the best.

Take care. I hope you find peace.

Thank you. I have, I've been planning on killing myself long before I ever heard or saw anything, but it's another driving factor. I just made this post to document how the things I'm hearing are evolving.

Spoiler: My plan if anyone is interested

I plan to jump off a bridge. I have picked a bridge that's been a favorite of mine from since I was a kid if that's even believable to have a favorite bridge. At it's height it has 80% chance of instant death, I've read a lot about what happens when you jump from many things to many different places below, but even if I just break my back I'm fine with drowning too because I will be jumping into water. Others can call it horrific but I'm fine with it. I will do it early on a Monday or Tuesday morning when there are less people out late like on a weekend. I've gone to the bridge multiple times to see when the best time is. There's a parking garage less than a mile from it where I will leave my car. I plan to get really high to ease my anxiety and then go to the bridge and do my best to go head first. Not saying this is the best plan, but it's the easiest for me and I can't do much nowadays.

I'm sorry for your suffering but your so-called delusions are not wrong. I've come to the conclusion that the universe is indeed a simulation. The scientists have found all sorts of clues including the Heisenberg Principle which says that the simple act of observing
changes things which is just what you would expect from a computer program or video game. To conserve energy, when not being observed, the program gets fuzzy and lazy. No need to get to specific. As soon as you focus your attention on it, it fleshes out gets more detailed. As understand it, wave when not observed, particle when it is observed. Again, as I understand it,Quantum Mechanics makes much more sense in a simulated world than a so-called real world. The constraints of the speed of light gives the computer time to adjust to contingencies, adjust the simulation so that it runs smoothly and fools us. I'm no scientist but I'm convinced. There's also the Plank Constant constraints that suggest the Universe is constructed on a kind of grid. Again, like something artificial, programmed. I'm getting a little out of my depth here but I imagine there are smart people here on this site who can explain better than I. Anyway, sorry if I highjacked your thread. I wish you the best.

Not to invalidate your feelings at all, but maybe we shouldn't indulge delusions or so-called delusions? I agree with you, so maybe I just listen to people who don't think like us too much, but Idk entertaining these thoughts just makes me feel bad and "triggers" me to start thinking about these things in full force which usually leads to bad episodes and mixing "reality" with "delusions" makes it a lot more scary and muddy for me. Even if I don't believe it I try to tell myself the things I think are just in my head so I have some kind of normal world to latch onto (even if it's not a good place). What do you think? Please do not apologize for sharing what you think in a polite way!

 

[Umri]

когда я глубоко думаю, мое сознание немного сдвигается, и я начинаю слышать мертвых. они, вероятно, прячутся примерно на 1 секунду в прошлом. на одну секунду в прошлом может оказаться целый мир высокоразвитых существ. они видят нас, потому что настоящее уходит в прошлое.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds terrifying, I'm sorry you have to go through this. I know it can be dreadful to deal with so much anxiety. If you do decide to ctb then I hope you find freedom from all suffering. I wish you the best.

 

[Crazy4u]

OP, have you talking to your therapist about this? do you take any medication at all? medication might help. Whatever your decision, I wish you the best

 

[1001YellowDaffodils]

OP, have you talking to your therapist about this? do you take any medication at all? medication might help. Whatever your decision, I wish you the best

I don't have a therapist anymore, the couple times I did see someone I didn't have these issues, and therapy didn't work for me for other issues. I don't and I'm not interested in it. There's a lot more things wrong with me and I know I will never be okay so this is my only option. Thank you.

 

[yellowjasmine88]

@Umri Any chance you would send me a direct message if you return to this site while I'm still around?

 

[albino_elk]

i knew few people who had voices and delusions. medication fixed everything. worth a try id say

 

[Lost Magic]

Yes, I do get that inner voice. I don't know where it comes from but it is there. Robin Williams spoke to Diane Sawyer about something similar.

 

[albino_elk]

Yes, I do get that inner voice. I don't know where it comes from but it is there. Robin Williams spoke to Diane Sawyer about something similar.

do you have more videos like this?the information about this inner quaiet voice thingy? i would love to know more;v

 

[forgotten15]

I am sorry you are going through this, I can only imagine how hard it must be for you. I don't want to scare you but what you are experiencing is similar to signs of schizophrenia, I really think you should seek help especially if you are hearing voices that tell you to hurt yourself. Take care!