Venting The urge to self destruct

[Anonymoususer1234]

I constantly have the urge to do self destructive things. (Things like cutting myself, being mean to other people, giving up on/sabotaging personal projects, binge eating etc.) Even when I'm doing well I still want to destroy and punish myself. It just feels natural. It's strange. I think it's an ingrained part of my personality at this point.

 

[the_path_of_sorrows]

Same here, mate, seems like my self hatred is the only fuel that helps to continue this existence. The main pre workout. Others do tend to see this as insanity.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

I've been self destructing for a very long time, I honestly have my girl in the other room and she's completely oblivious to how I honestly would rather be ashes in an urn than continue to fake being a person for much longer. I've ruined everything I've ever had, and I've been fooled by people I thought were real to the point that I've become become completely numb. Nothing makes sense and happiness have become such an unobtainable goal that I tend to start shit just to watch the fireworks.