SuicidalSymphonies
I think I'll take a dirt nap.
- Oct 13, 2019
- 1,028
I am trying to recover, but all I can think about is CTB.
I'm struggling with myself not to cut, or starve myself.. Or anything that will harm my physical being so that I'm skinnier, or get the quick rush from the pain.
I'm scared of there being no way out of this. "It would be better for everyone I know if I died."
I want to die. I want to die. I want to die.
Am I obsessed with dying or have things gotten too difficult. I'm medicated and that's the only thing between me living or ending it.
I feel that I have no quality of life. I'm just so depressed. It isn't even just recently or since I joined. I've been depressed and suicidal for the majority of my life.
All I am looking forward to and hanging on to is the end of this pandemic, so that I may see the love of my life.
Thanks for reading if you did.. x
I'm struggling with myself not to cut, or starve myself.. Or anything that will harm my physical being so that I'm skinnier, or get the quick rush from the pain.
I'm scared of there being no way out of this. "It would be better for everyone I know if I died."
I want to die. I want to die. I want to die.
Am I obsessed with dying or have things gotten too difficult. I'm medicated and that's the only thing between me living or ending it.
I feel that I have no quality of life. I'm just so depressed. It isn't even just recently or since I joined. I've been depressed and suicidal for the majority of my life.
All I am looking forward to and hanging on to is the end of this pandemic, so that I may see the love of my life.
Thanks for reading if you did.. x