Help The urge to go is overpowering

[Lara Francis]

Please help me for the sake of my son.
From one very suicidal person to other,how do u get through or is just it now!

 

[Its time its time]

Hi Lara. Have you tied all lose ends for your son?

 

[Lara Francis]

No but i need to go
This is the worst i have ever been

 

[Its time its time]

I suggest not to rush it. If you have not well planned, you might end up not killing yourself- and instead becoming a burden to others. Also failed attempts are mental torture. So chances are that you'd end up more depressed and unhappy if you fail.

Importantly make sure that all lose ends are tied for your son -if you love him. And this is from personal experience. When my dad left without even saying anything - it was really hard for us.

 

[TiredHorse]

I'm so sorry, Lara. I wish I had answers, but I can only offer sympathy. My own attempts at recovery are failing, and I almost pulled the trigger last night, so I know what it means to need to go --it's awful, and I wish I could help you somehow. I wish I could tell you how to turn down the volume of the world as it screams at you. Last night, somehow I found sleep, and though I hated waking up this morning I've managed to slog through another 12+hours so far.

 

[Lara Francis]

I going to see what i can od on !

 

[TiredHorse]

Be careful: it's a guarantee that OTCs won't work, and benzos aren't much better. You may end up in hospital, and that won't improve the situation. Better to not try to CTB via OD, but if you can, just knock yourself out for a while and hope that a few hours unconscious blunts the horrible serrated knife of emotions. When you're steadier, set up a better method.

 

[Lara Francis]

Taken some cocodamol just to get to sleep.
Thanku tired horse.
Sorry u were ferling this shit last night tuoo.xx

 

[TiredHorse]

I hope sleep "knits anew the raveled sleeve of hope," as the old line goes.

Rest well, weary one.

 

[Jenna]

Oh Lara I wish I had the right words. I know your turmoil is beyond overwhelming.

 

[Macc Lad]

Please help me for the sake of my son.
From one very suicidal person to other,how do u get through or is just it now!

becoming a parent stopped me from suicide........hope you can find some strength x

 

[Final Escape]

Smoke some weed, deep breathing meditation to calm the overactive brain. U have to calm your brain, it's attacking u. I get this too so I totally know the agony. Are u still in the psych holding place? Or do u have access to do whatever? Oops this is from yesterday. I hope u are feeling a bit less on edge today.

 

[wanttodie]

so sorry same for me The urge to go is overpowering to end my life