I think differently  than those that answered in that trolly website and from threads  here on this website also  i think differently from people on this website.
	
	
		
			
				
			
			
				
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					neal.fun
				
 
			 
		 
	 
I decided to think from first principles  or that to me  absolutely 100% are facts after thinking and researching after a long time.  Some things that seem like  facts to me are
1. Me suffering  extremely or  constant unbearable pain is the worst thing  , by far outweighs any pleasurable addiction.  This is one of my top goals avoid me suffering constant unbearable  pain at all costs.  What is worth even 5 minutes  of the worst constant worst pain every  second. To me nothing is even worth 3 seconds of the worst pain .  Anyone can be captured by  a gang and put in a room with  nothing to do and tortured.  Just sitting in an empty small  locked room with nothing but a toilet water and bread is torture proving life is bad. How many  hours days or weeks will  suffering in an empty room become unbearable even though  u have the basics shelter  food water a toilet?1.6 million  people in the US attempt  suicide per year with brutal methods like guns showing how bad life is.
2.  Me every  human  will die soon cause life is short. How fast did the last 5 years  pass by?
3. There  are many horrible things that  can happen to me &   any human  any day.
4. A human  is just cells the same cells  as other  animals.
5. Nothing  matters.  What will matter in 1000 years a trillion  years? Life  has no objective meaning no objective purpose.
But "enjoy yourself ". Yeah break ur back every day  working  a job and chores dealing with problems for a few fleeting minutes of "enjoyment" that are not worth the worst torture possible that im risking to "enjoy myself".  This "enjoy myself " is what caused me to not see reality like these principles and distract me waste my time when I could  have been  working to get my suicide method and mindset ready to kill myself
6. Every thing  dies decays breaks down becomes disordered even me a human  humanity life the sun earth the universe: the law of entropy the 2nd law of thermodynamics
7. So many horrible  things so much evil so many lies scams in the world.  For example  this evil  suicide  prohibition  that keeps one in the prison unable to escape extreme torture
8. These principles so far and many others show me that nothing matters  or should matter to me except  me avoiding  constant unbearable  pain and getting my suicide ready to go and killing  myself  asap. Non-existence forever is the ultimate perfection
9 . Many more including specific  personal horrors