Discussion the time between you do it and death

[anna_bot]

this has always, for me, been the most frightening part of ctbing. not the actual dying part, nor the prep, but the time from when you swallow sn/whatever and the time you go unconscious. it's less about the physical pain for me but moreso the mental part of: "im going to die in a few minutes.."

how do you deal with this?

 

[kitkat9234]

Following…. Having really bad SI at the moment. But also worried about the prep time and process of dying if I'm sucessful.

 

[offbalance]

this has always, for me, been the most frightening part of ctbing. not the actual dying part, nor the prep, but the time from when you swallow sn/whatever and the time you go unconscious. it's less about the physical pain for me but moreso the mental part of: "im going to die in a few minutes.."

how do you deal with this?

I'm going to deal with it by taking a bunch of benzos

 

[anna_bot]

How much of what do you plan to take if you dont mind me asking?

I'm going to deal with it by taking a bunch of benzos

 

[offbalance]

How much of what do you plan to take if you dont mind me asking?

20mg of Xanax, as recommended in the SN Bible by Vizzy

 

[ghost5555]

Last time I attempted to ctb I just laid there and closed my eyes and I remember nothing else after that. My previous method was a failed od. And to add on, I think the mental part is a huge part of the preparation process in general. It's something that starts months and weeks before you actually take action, not unlike the rest of the process

 

[Hiro Uchiha]

Supplementary drugs are known to help counter or alleviate distress, whether mental or physical during the process. It'd be nice to have something to help me pass out faster. I personally wouldn't take antacids with sn, stomach acids should help in the release on nitric oxide that can induce unconsciousness quicker. My survival instict is very strong. I get anxiety and panic attacks pretty easy so my prescription drug (antipsychotic) should help me in case this occurs.

 

[kilowatt]

What you're thinking of is just the occurrence of SI. In a lot of cases panic kicks in at such time, but coming to terms with death and learning about the phenomenon you're going to experience can help soothe the whole adrenaline of it. ''I'm going to die in a few minutes'' sounds more like relief to me, personally. Like damn? Really? The moment I've been waiting for my entire life is about to become reality?
However, regardless of how mentally prepared you are, there's always a chance SI kicks harder than you expect. It's better to have your plan well put together before you proceed to avoid complications. Benzos are known to help this.

 

[plastic]

For me, the bigger problem is that I have to daily confront civilization and things that my being does not agree with, and this creates severe discomfort and stress for me every day. The longing for death, its approach and death itself became especially my only hope and over time it became a passion.