The thought of aging makes me suicidal

[sserafim]

I would hate to have to grow old and wrinkly. I want to die young so that I can preserve my youth and beauty.

 

[broth0100]

I felt sad when i realized tht i had no hope for my future n tht i didnt wanna grow older anymore..i kno tht if ur lucky life can get sweeter as long as u stay kind n open as u grow older but i just dont even wanna kno wats around the corner anymore n thts rlly sad to me, feels like im grieving myself while im still alive. I get where ur coming from too tho, i think ur aversion to looking aged is a common one

 

[sserafim]

I felt sad when i realized tht i had no hope for my future n tht i didnt wanna grow older anymore..i kno tht if ur lucky life can get sweeter as long as u stay kind n open as u grow older but i just dont even wanna kno wats around the corner anymore n thts rlly sad to me, feels like im grieving myself while im still alive. I get where ur coming from too tho, i think ur aversion to looking aged is a common one

I also don't want to have to be a real adult. I would hate to have to become just another slave to the system. I can't envision or imagine myself going to work/a job everyday, let alone doing that for the rest of my life. I just don't see a future for myself as an adult, nor do I want one. I want to ctb before 25 to escape adulthood (and aging as well).

 

[hikikomorizombie]

i don't mind aging to a certain point, i just would never want to be elderly. my grandpa told me that sometimes when he'd go to the bathroom in the morning, he'd scare himself when he looked in the mirror, bc that wasn't who he was expecting to see. mentally he still felt my age. that is so terrifying to me

i'd prefer to rot in the ground, not in front of my own eyes. don't want to watch myself decay.

 

[sserafim]

i don't mind aging to a certain point, i just would never want to be elderly. my grandpa told me that sometimes when he'd go to the bathroom in the morning, he'd scare himself when he looked in the mirror, bc that wasn't who he was expecting to see. mentally he still felt my age. that is so terrifyingly sad to me

i'd prefer to rot in the ground, not in front of my own eyes. watch myself decay.

That's so sad I never want to be elderly either. I would hate to have to watch myself decay, both in mind and body. My grandpa has Alzheimer's and has become a shell of his former self and my grandma fell a few years ago and broke her leg/hip (I actually don't know which one) so now she has to use a cane/walker to get around. I would hate for my mind and body to get old, weak and frail.

Adulthood, middle age and old age just aren't stages of life that I want to experience. I feel like I'm meant to die young and I was supposed to die a long time ago. I wasn't supposed to live this long, I wanted to be dead before 18. I don't think that I was even meant to reach adulthood tbh

 

[Sleeper System]

I would hate to have to grow old and wrinkly. I want to die young so that I can preserve my youth and beauty.

 

[R_N]

Aging gets you closer to death but it makes you suicidal.

I know what you mean but I find this ironic lol.

 

[sserafim]

Aging gets you closer to death but it makes you suicidal.

I know what you mean but I find this ironic lol.

I don't see a point in aging or your body decaying if you're just going to die anyways. I'd rather bypass it and die young instead

 

[R_N]

I don't see a point in aging or your body decaying if you're just going to die anyways. I'd rather bypass it and die young instead

I get it dw. It is not uncommon to feel like that. Quality of life drops with age so it is natural not wanting to experience it.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

I also hate aging, it just makes you more ugly and useless, probably a myriad of health issues and mental issues as well.

Then you inevitably get forgotten about, not just by family but by society since you are a plum stuck in a chair "Draining Resources"
What a sad pathetic planet we have turned into a shithole, but circus has to go on i guess..

 

[untothedepths]

Aging is starting to scare me more than death ever did. Not trying to fearmonger or anything, it's just I've heard anecdotal horror stories about it, like being alone/extreme isolation, falling and breaking one's hip, and just complete frailty. Couple that with terrible retirement homes....yeah, no thanks.

 

[Z-A]

I also want to die young with a healthy mind and body. Decaying till old age seems unnecessary and scary for me personally.

 

[LastFlowers]

I would hate to have to grow old and wrinkly. I want to die young so that I can preserve my youth and beauty.

Some of us have nothing to preserve.
Or lost it all along the way.

Though I certainly don't appreciate the passage of time making matters worse.

 

[Morte]

The older i become, the more the universe seems hellish. I remember in the past everything seemed magical, small things made me happy. Now everything seems generic and bland. I also want to die young, better than waiting to rot.

 

[davidtorez]

I'm 42 and my joints are all starting to fail me as it is. I can't imagine myself being in my 50s 60s and beyond. I have tendonosis and osteoarthritis in both feet, tendonosis in my right elbow and ligament damage in both my wrists. This is 90% of the reason I want to stop existing. I don't find anything good in aging, it's pointless and only to me it's only about entropy taking its toll on the human body

 

[Erick]

I also don't want to have to be a real adult. I would hate to have to become just another slave to the system. I can't envision or imagine myself going to work/a job everyday, let alone doing that for the rest of my life. I just don't see a future for myself as an adult, nor do I want one. I want to ctb before 25 to escape adulthood (and aging as well).

Having a job is not that bad, it depends on the job. My last three jobs were better than staying at home doing nothing, specially the last one, it was so much fun, I loved working there. You can make friends in your job, and go out with them. I had a friend that was depressed because she was at home doing nothing, then she found a job, made two friends there and hang out with them now. Same thing can happen to you, you may find a job and be happy in this specific job.
Aging sucks, but it is not the end of the world, as long as you are healthy and not poor. The worst thing is losing your health, after I lost my health, I lost all my friends and everything. I would give anything to be in your situation where my concern is having to work and worry about aging. I was happy when those were my concerns. So don't worry too much about them, they are not as bad as you think they are.

 

[SillyGirl>_<]

Agreed, anything past 30 just seems miserable. I'm really not looking forward to 20 in a couple of months.

 

[Onomatopoeia]

I would hate to have to grow old and wrinkly. I want to die young so that I can preserve my youth and beauty.

The thought of aging ALONE is definitely a suicidal thought. My husband's grandma and grandpa are still alive at ages 85 and 83, and still married after 65 years. They lived through hell in the USA. And every time I saw them, they were always smiling, holding hands and watching old movies. They went ice skating with us once, and skated as a couple right beside us.

It's still to this day one of the cutest things and most fun moments I've experienced, and motivated me to want to grow old with my husband. I also think us hanging out with them in a normal social setting like that, and talking to them on Skype weekly, made them feel young and vibrant. But I definitely would not want to be alone at that age.

Sadly and probably not coincidentally, both of them went from being very healthy for their ages, to very sick and frail after my husband, their only grandson, was murdered. They have nine granddaughters. He was their only grandchild who was married.

 

[lastvinter1]

I think about this a lot, and friends act like I'm being outrageous whenever I mention it. Why would I want to be old, dependent, and without potential?

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Aging is so awful. I don't understand those who want to live as long as possible including living through old age. I'm already suffering a lot already by just existing.. the amount of suffering I'd feel at old age is beyond my comprehension. Not that I think I'd live long enough to reach old age anyway due to my autism making me incompatible with life

 

[hadenough58]

I would hate to have to grow old and wrinkly. I want to die young so that I can preserve my youth and beauty.

Please do not take this as a judgement but while getting old can be a little terrifying when you are young it also has so many benefits, not least that you have lived a life before even thinking of ending it.
Now of course I do not know your personal circumstances and so there may well be so much more behind this decision than just aging but give yourself a chance before taking a decision there is no coming back from.
FYI I am 67 and have lived a life but feel enough is enough

 

[Captive_Mind515]

Please do not take this as a judgement but while getting old can be a little terrifying when you are young it also has so many benefits, not least that you have lived a life before even thinking of ending it.
Now of course I do not know your personal circumstances and so there may well be so much more behind this decision than just aging but give yourself a chance before taking a decision there is no coming back from.
FYI I am 67 and have lived a life but feel enough is enough

Dead people can't bring their experiences with them, so it makes no difference ultimately if you die at 27 or 67 - the extra years don't add anything more to the value of your corpse. We're all the same in death, no matter how full your life was. Also, a dead person cannot have any regrets about not living a full life, so again it's a bit of a redundant line of thinking.

 

[steppingoff]

I would hate to have to grow old and wrinkly. I want to die young so that I can preserve my youth and beauty.

I am curious what you consider to be old?

 

[Agon321]

Old age also scares me. 40 years is the final limit for me, anything beyond that is not very pleasant for me. Of course, you can enjoy life in your later years, especially if you took care of your health, but I would not like to cross that line. This is probably because I will soon be 21, so being twice my age is a depressing prospect for me. Nature has failed at aging. The older you become, the weaker you become. I don't want to experience this.

 

[Redleaf1992]

Ageing is something that does terrify me. Before feeling like CBT, I was hoping they would soon release anti ageing pills (they don't seem that far off).

I'm 32 and upto 40 doesn't scare me, I'm lucky to look very young for my age. What scares me is wrinkling, balding, general immobility, brain going slow and senile and not being able to look after myself. Gives me the hee bee jeebus thinking about it.

 

[AresCohere]

Same here, but for some reason I got "lucky" I guess as I still look years younger than I am. I don't know how much longer this will last tho, college is stressful and will age me faster.

Only time will tell, if I let time pass that is.

 

[sserafim]

I am curious what you consider to be old?

I don't actually know, but I don't want to live past my mid 20s

Please do not take this as a judgement but while getting old can be a little terrifying when you are young it also has so many benefits, not least that you have lived a life before even thinking of ending it.
Now of course I do not know your personal circumstances and so there may well be so much more behind this decision than just aging but give yourself a chance before taking a decision there is no coming back from.
FYI I am 67 and have lived a life but feel enough is enough

I've already lived a lot in my 23 years. Nothing about adulthood appeals to me, I don't want to have to live it. The thought of having to work for a living for the rest of my life makes me actively suicidal

 

[Meteora]

I have that, too. I have a body dysmorphic disorder, I don't recognise myself in the mirror (already from a young age), it often feels like a huge humiliation to see my reflection.
On the other hand, old people, authentic old people are such a great aura often, i admire them. I love their wrinkly faces.
Guess we should all look in the mirror less and care less about our appearances. That's tough in these ages, though.

 

[hadenough58]

Dead people can't bring their experiences with them, so it makes no difference ultimately if you die at 27 or 67 - the extra years don't add anything more to the value of your corpse. We're all the same in death, no matter how full your life was. Also, a dead person cannot have any regrets about not living a full life, so again it's a bit of a redundant line of thinking.

The point I was trying to make to @sserafim was a fear of getting old is normal and taking your own life before evening knowing what you are affriad of seems to be no reason but as I said in my post there may be far more to the decision than just getting old

 

[Homo erectus]

I don't know why people have not solved the aging problem. They invented the wheel some 5000 years ago. and have studied alchemy and elixirs for donkey's years. It doesn't make sense that people still have to suffer old age.