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MyShadow

MyShadow

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Yesterday, I felt better. Not amazing. Not "cured". Just better. The sun was out and it was a beautiful day. It didn't start out that way. The anxiety had been piling up the day before because I had to work and lead people and there were so many unknown variables. But when I woke up, the weather was spectacular and the day just came together beautifully. It was a day worth facing.

The hardest part was going "home" to a house that is full of strangers. I really miss my old life. I miss my kids and dogs. I miss having purpose. Because of the traumatic events of the past year, I don't know what the future holds for me and that still scares me.

But for now, it was good to feel the sun on my face.
 
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I'm glad you had such a beautiful moment. Wish there were more of them to make you feel better. Sorry for everything you had and have to go through. ❤️

I can relate. The world is shit but nature amazes me. I love to feel sun and wind on my skin, to admire night sky, to hear birds singing, to walk in a forest. Maybe more parts of nature can bring you relief. Wish you all the best.
 
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I'm glad you had such a beautiful moment. Wish there were more of them to make you feel better. Sorry for everything you had and have to go through. ❤️

I can relate. The world is shit but nature amazes me. I love to feel sun and wind on my skin, to admire night sky, to hear birds singing, to walk in a forest. Maybe more parts of nature can bring you relief. Wish you all the best.
I am lucky to be able to live and work close to nature. Yes, there are lots of stressful things about living here. The cost of living and housing has skyrocketed in recent years and my job is REALLY stressful because of the immense responsibility. But there are those magic moments when things come together.

Thanks for your response.
 

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