The stigma/demonising of EUPD/BPD makes me want to cry and scream at the same time.

[CTB Fella]

EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) also known as BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) is the absolute worst mental health diagnosis to be labelled with.

Therapists don't want to have anything to do with us, services are denied to us, and basically we are shit out of luck when it comes to getting any help.

My local urgent advice line is full of absolute cunts. I went against my better judgement the last time I called them, but I thought I'd give them one last chance to offer help and support. I told the "nurse" that I was feeling suicidal and had made plans. You know what the wanker said to me? "You have capacity, if you're going to do it you're going to do it, there's nothing we can do to stop you." I expected a negative response, but nothing as blatant as that.

It goes without saying, I took the overdose.

I don't know who, or what I am anymore? I have been without any treatment for so long (apart from medication) that my mind has become twisted. I can say that now, with a relatively clear mind, but when the EUPD is triggered, I swear I go into some kind of trance & tend to take serious overdoses.

So the question really has to be asked: Do I have full capacity?

Anyway, rant over.

Sending hugs to anyone else who is tarnished with either of these two fucking diagnoses.

Wishing you well.

 

[EmmaD]

I totally understand everything you're saying! My official diagnosis was EUPD too. Oh my god I could write a book about how shit mental health services are. I think the worst thing anyone could say to me now is 'there is help out there' NO THERE ISN'T!!!!! And you are right… therapists HATE us! And I feel like so many other diagnoses are sympathised with like depression/ anxiety etc.. but you never hear anyone say anything good or sympathetic about people like us. Look at how Amber Heard was absolutely vilified about potentially having bpd! It was used to blacken her name!!!
Also it sounds like you, like me struggle with a sense of self. I don't even know how you work out who you are!!
I have no advice for you but a whole lot of sympathy and understanding. It's fucking shit.

 

[CTB Fella]

I totally understand everything you're saying! My official diagnosis was EUPD too. Oh my god I could write a book about how shit mental health services are. I think the worst thing anyone could say to me now is 'there is help out there' NO THERE ISN'T!!!!! And you are right… therapists HATE us! And I feel like so many other diagnoses are sympathised with like depression/ anxiety etc.. but you never hear anyone say anything good or sympathetic about people like us. Look at how Amber Heard was absolutely vilified about potentially having bpd! It was used to blacken her name!!!
Also it sounds like you, like me struggle with a sense of self. I don't even know how you work out who you are!!
I have no advice for you but a whole lot of sympathy and understanding. It's fucking shit.

Thank you for replying, Emma, and I can feel the rage in your text.

It's so true, it absolutely 100% is the worst diagnosis to be tarnished with.

But having said that, having been detained under Section 2 of the Mental Health Act 27 times, I can tell you that 9 out of 10 mental health "nurses" are useless, lazy cunts.

I can, and do, run circles around them.

We (EUPD) are known for being extremely intelligent, but we can't manage our emotions. These pathetic "nurses" just have no idea. They're too busy jabbing someone who's kicking off with the liquid cosh.

They are LAZY, and they have failed me every time.