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Hey y'all. God I want to take a break.... I want to stop doing my thesis and figure shit out, whether it's going to therapy or planning my death (or both, who knows). But by taking a term off I still have to pay half the tuition and I don't know if it's okay to pay but not doing any work. I just want to do anything other than dwell on school... I'd even work in a grocery store or something. I'm running out of time though, should've graduated last year but I keep procrastinating both my thesis and my death. I can't even drop out because I already spent so much time and money on school.

Can I even vent here? I don't wanna make a new thread for every thoughts lol.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Hey y'all. God I want to take a break.... I want to stop doing my thesis and figure shit out, whether it's going to therapy or planning my death (or both, who knows). But by taking a term off I still have to pay half the tuition and I don't know if it's okay to pay but not doing any work. I just want to do anything other than dwell on school... I'd even work in a grocery store or something. I'm running out of time though, should've graduated last year but I keep procrastinating both my thesis and my death. I can't even drop out because I already spent so much time and money on school.

Can I even vent here? I don't wanna make a new thread for every thoughts lol.

Of course you can vent here. Sounds like you're in a bit of a catch 22 type situation.

 

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Of course you can vent here. Sounds like you're in a bit of a catch 22 type situation.

Ah, what's that?

Oh nice, I've been wondering if I have to make a new thread every time I need to vent lol. I didn't join a lot of forums before this so idk how it works

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Ah, what's that?

Damned if you do, damned if you don't. A situation with no clear winning decision.

 

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Damned if you do, damned if you don't. A situation with no clear winning decision.

Sounds familiar... well, it is what it is. I keep thinking to die before August because I don't want to pay the tuition but I can't because I haven't found the right way and the right tool to do it. I've been thinking to just do something drastic so I don't have to waste time explaining everything to people. Seems cruel to my family though and so sudden too because I never showed any indication of being suicidal (at least I tried not to).

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Sounds familiar... well, it is what it is. I keep thinking to die before August because I don't want to pay the tuition but I can't because I haven't found the right way and the right tool to do it. I've been thinking to just do something drastic so I don't have to waste time explaining everything to people. Seems cruel to my family though and so sudden too because I never showed any indication of being suicidal (at least I tried not to).

I wouldn't do anything rash or drastic. You should really take some time to reflect on this. These are very important decisions that you're contemplating.

 

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Ah, what's that?

Oh nice, I've been wondering if I have to make a new thread every time I need to vent lol. I didn't join a lot of forums before this so idk how it works

I've made some threads about different things but the one I made for myself that I still post in is my rambling thread. Sometimes I post additional thoughts or songs. Not saying I would never make another thread though, if it's about something other than what I want in there.

I pretty much started that one in the event I ever get the courage to CTB it would be something to leave behind in case family or friends would find this site. It may help them understand why I felt I had to leave.

Just my thoughts.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I've made some threads about different things but the one I made for myself that I still post in is my rambling thread. Sometimes I post additional thoughts or songs. Not saying I would never make another thread though, if it's about something other than what I want in there.

I pretty much started that one in the event I ever get the courage to CTB it would be something to leave behind in case family or friends would find this site. It may help them understand why I felt I had to leave.

Just my thoughts.

That's not a half bad idea. It's a fairly popular thread too.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

That's not a half bad idea. It's a fairly popular thread too.

Good to see you Brick. I guess you had off today or you are done at work for the day.

Good to see you Brick. I guess you had off today or you are done at work for the day.

Forgot to say I haven't posted in there in a couple weeks but I did want to add a song I had posted in the Mega Music Thread.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Good to see you Brick. I guess you had off today or you are done at work for the day.

Nope, I still post at work when it's slow. But sshhhh don't tell anyone

So I've been down to only drinking once a week now. But I made a total ass of myself and was mean to someone I care about yesterday. So I think it's time to kick the booze for good.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Nope, I still post at work when it's slow. But sshhhh don't tell anyone

So I've been down to only drinking once a week now. But I made a total ass of myself and was mean to someone I care about yesterday. So I think it's time to kick the booze for good.

I promise not to tell anyone ... not that I even could. Just don't get caught.
I don't do well with booze either... I've been told I get mean also. Not in a physical way... just say stupid shit.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I promise not to tell anyone ... not that I even could. Just don't get caught.
I don't do well with booze either... I've been told I get mean also. Not in a physical way... just say stupid shit.

I hear that, I don't get physical either but I do talk alot of shit when I'm drunk lol.

 

[Lorntroubles]

*flings shit in @Brick In The Wall 's yard.* Just cuz.

I heard you like Shitake?

 

[Brick In The Wall]

*flings shit in @Brick In The Wall 's yard.* Just cuz.

I heard you like Shitake?

You know it brother. Thanks for fertilizing my garden lol.

 

[Lorntroubles]

Damn, no shit wars with you today?

Side note, what do you grow?

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Damn, no shit wars with you today?

Side note, what do you grow?

Na I talked enough shit yesterday when I alcohol poisoned myself lol. We grow a bit of everything. My roommate is into perma culture.

 

[Lorntroubles]

Na I talked enough shit yesterday when I alcohol poisoned myself lol. We grow a bit of everything. My roommate is into perma culture.

Alcohol poisoning is no fun. Dry-heaving and throwing up water ffs.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Well I'm calling it, have a goodnight everyone!

 

[RM5998]

Well, my final semester is over, and I have time to write all the Jason Todd fanfiction I've been plotting for a while now... My job is starting in less than a month, and I don't feel particularly ready for it. Well, time to go back to ignoring issues till I have no choice but to tackle them.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Well, my final semester is over, and I have time to write all the Jason Todd fanfiction I've been plotting for a while now... My job is starting in less than a month, and I don't feel particularly ready for it. Well, time to go back to ignoring issues till I have no choice but to tackle them.

Congratulations man! I'm sure you'll be fine on the new job. It's normal to be a bit hesitant. Even when you're over qualified and experienced you can still get the jitters with any new employment.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Crazy ass storm came through and killed the power at work earlier. What a cluster fuck that was.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Its almost been a year now since I've last been able to see my two young sons. I hope they never see this because it means they're in a bad way.

But I'm sending my love out into the universe. I hope it reaches them. Dad loves you with everything that I am. I want you to be happier.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

This place is quickly becoming my own personal blog now.

 

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Popping in because idk what to do. I think I might have fucked up more things than I already thought I did. Sending me into a panic... fuck this

 

[Georgii]

Dropping by some cappuccino for good vibes. No stealing the lighter please tho .

 

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Okay I did not fuck more things up (yet) but other things are fucking themselves up for no goddamn reason I'm about to have a breakdown. God damn it, why am I like this. My fucking hands are shaking

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Okay I did not fuck more things up (yet) but other things are fucking themselves up for no goddamn reason I'm about to have a breakdown. God damn it, why am I like this. My fucking hands are shaking

I hope you're doing a little better now.

 

[Lorntroubles]

Time for me to enter the lounge and blast inappropriate music!!!

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Time for me to enter the lounge and blast inappropriate music!!!

Have at it brother. We're not exactly a family friendly establishment, and I'm sure as shit not gona complain

 

[Georgii]

Time for me to enter the lounge and blast inappropriate music!!!

Well I don't mean to complain or anything but ..

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