the site I was gonna buy SN from stopped selling it

[SNastablesalt]

I have no idea what the fuck to do now.

I would have been dead by now, but I was out the house when my first SN order delivered, and my mum got it and sent it back.

I knew that site was reputable but I was putting off repurchasing, and now I never can. I'm so fucked, I don't know what to do, I'm not asking for a source or anything I just araagghhhh I'm really upset

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as all I wish for is a reliable poison so finally I can be at peace from this futile torturous existence, I see so much cruelty in how the option to peacefully cease existing is taken away with the suffering of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what but anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I'm just curious why mom would send it back? Seems shed be more worried about getting you treatment? This is most likely paranoia now.

Don't really feel like having to judge everybody now.

Redditor infiltrates the SS

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[SNastablesalt]

I'm just curious why mom would send it back? Seems shed be more worried about getting you treatment? This is most likely paranoia now.

Don't really feel like having to judge everybody now.

Redditor infiltrates the SS

sanctioned-suicide.net

she knew I was suicidal already so she didn't freak out and part of my like kinda safety plan thing is to keep me out of a&e at all costs and the only other way to get immediate help was to call the police and I have really bad trauma from them, however she did get in contact with my psychiatrist and we did discuss being "voluntary" inpatient but it was agreed by everyone not to let me go, the system in the UK is FUCKED and a lot of autistic people end up never getting out.

 

[yawdrareg]

however she did get in contact with my psychiatrist and we did discuss being "voluntary" inpatient but it was agreed by everyone not to let me go, the system in the UK is FUCKED and a lot of autistic people end up never getting out.

the inpatient system in general everywhere is so messed up it's crazy how its still accepted let alone widely used :-/

so sorry that happened. i wish u the best